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kimberleigh a holman

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Into Motion (a studio reflection)

Lying not quite on my back but more so than any other side, I can sense the nearness of the tiny dirt particles and bits of floor clinging to my clothing but not the ceiling. Diffused and minute, focus beams into the atmosphere, far beyond the studio lid, and also pressure washes the interior surface of my body.

I’m here and everywhere, all at once.

While here, present in the space between the ears and the scooped-out interior tips of the fingers, the insistent urge to move rumbles from matching pits of black hole deep in the belly and palms. Vacuum, a whirlpool draining from behind my navel, so easily folds the body in two as I’m faced with my kneecaps — the same black holes contract my hands from the most tender center spot relegating them temporarily occupied, take a moment to embrace contraction.

This curled in space might be infinite, if it wasn’t instantaneous.

On its own impulse a leg shoots out of the open-air womb, planting itself firmly onto— into if it could— the rubbery floor, propelling hips, torso, head to rapidly unfurl into much cooler air. The expanse of my wingspan driven wider by an eager collarbone and the desire for stretch. What follows is swirling, vaulting, pouncing and pause.

Site isn't floor, studio, rehearsal, but the perimeter of my sternum, the weakness of worked hamstrings, the compensation of shifting too far to one side. It is always somewhere inside my body.

tags: movement, authentic movement, performative writing, sense writing, writing, vulnerability, studio, practice, modern dance, postmodern dance, contemporary dance
categories: Writing
Wednesday 10.04.17
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Digesting the Dance Experience via Gallim Dance's W H A L E

More often than not I prefer not to define dance (if you've been to my blog this is old news). I feel a certain depth of infuriation when well-meaning patrons and peers attribute the form to the pursuit of a specific technique or subjugate the entire genre with a quantified assessment of physicality in the work. The need to define pushes audience members to focus on ‘getting it’ instead of allowing them the permission to sit back and observe, letting their senses balance and guide their path through a performance. This is not to point fingers directly at audience members, but of my experiences observing US viewing-culture, it’s perhaps not so much an individual’s bad habits as an epidemic. This rigidity enables viewers to pass judgement on their perceived success of a work based on if they can identify and classify the movement happening on stage. It’s worth noting that this distaste for parameters and qualifiers is likely due to the fact that my own work in dance tends to stray from technical display, I’m more interested in building statements from physical bodies in whatever way I find most fitting, and my own making bias and a history of viewers offering classification in response to my work certainly contributes to my opinions.

What I feel confident to state about dance is that it is ephemeral. The dance I seek out burns brightest in its brief live form— when its creators and performers realize how deep a platform they have to deliver something incredibly fleeting. This brevity makes everything high-stakes; touch and presence and embodiment are either authentic or artificial. With this statement I don’t mean to discredit artifice, which is truly an exciting tool, but I’m more enamored with the challenge of creating authenticity onstage, a delightful albeit daunting task. Successful dance has moments I can relate to and experience, certain circumstances delivered and decoded straight through the gut. These moments lend themselves to performances I fall in love with and declare war upon, my admiration and hatred coming from these visceral interpretations. The simplified version of this: dance provokes feeling.

Every now and then, aforementioned frustrations taken into consideration, I find myself so unmistakably in the presence of dance that all I can do is bask in such a moment of clarity. Gallim Dance’s W H A L E (which I attended February 11 at the Institute of Contemporary Art/Boston) provided such a brilliantly clear moment, embodying dance and constantly provoking reaction over seventy brief and captivating minutes. Risking hypocrisy with such a definitive statement, as I sat and watched the performers dive into the piece I realized that dance is getting it done, doing the work (the it, intangible, and the work, in this case, not so much the steps but the actions prompted by these extracts of life and conjectures of how love, sex, and domesticity exist in day-to-day life). The company members regardless of shape, size, strength or sex picked each other up, threw each other about the stage, ran up each other's bodies and invested themselves in the very presence of the piece— the action was all at once daily routine and lavish display. Commitment to a central line of inquiry from conceptual, physical and aesthetic perspectives all led to the success of the work as a whole.

Created by Andrea Miller and her company and collaborators, W H A L E is self-described as utilizing “radical physical language and impulsive narrative pace to juxtapose love, sex and domesticity. This piece trails the human pursuit to love and be loved, and navigates the expectations, anxiety, and forgiveness surrounding this struggle through moments of emotional vulnerability, sensual abandonment, and spiritual tribulation.” The work’s aesthetic, captured through intense and specific movement vocabulary and simple visuals, centered around the imperfect and uncomfortable, specifically vulnerability, intimacy and attraction. Miller’s movement, based in the Gaga style and influenced by her time in Ohad Naharin’s Batsheva Ensemble, is radical indeed, a perfect vehicle for the work. While Gaga as a movement language is about listening to one’s internal impulses it goes far beyond somatic pleasure, displaying as the quirkiest output of physicality, sensation, and thought— perhaps because it doesn’t adhere to a classical genre despite being performed by highly trained bodies. This absolute freedom in movement enabled the performers to share not just their brilliant physicality but glimmers of their own life experiences, impulses and instinctual reactions. Limbs moved as if they were suddenly animated by electricity, upper and lower bodies moved independently of each other in relation to the commands of the core, gestures of all sizes erupted from fingers, faces, and posture. I can’t imagine this work utilizing any other vocabulary and holding on to its ability to explore relationship to such depth.

Movement vocabulary led to various forms of partnering, and all performed physicality came directly back to experienced relationship, impressive, considering the vast and varied aspects of connection found in the work. In the first few moments of the piece, a performer ran up another performer’s body. It was such a straight forward aggression— the soles of one’s flat bare feet thudding up the surface of another’s body— and it was thrilling and reminiscent of the brutal aggressions one only has with someone that they hold incredibly close. A bit later a duet brought me to tears; Miller didn’t prescribe any sort of overt narrative here, but the performers fluctuated between such tender and vigorous treatment of each other’s bodies and trust that the moment couldn’t resist providing a sense of voyeuristic intimacy. Later, a woman ran infinite circles around a male performer only breaking her path to strike her partner again and again with body and firsts. Watching this segment transported me to earlier in the day where I was beyond frustrated with my own partner and couldn’t help the endless verbal jabs that I knew wouldn’t help the situation in the long run— here it was in physical form. Aggressive, tender, and ridiculous, every moment of partnering, duet and ensemble work reminded me of how there are some physical aspects of ourselves that only the most intimate partner will ever see. Beyond sex and physical intimacy, the obvious examples, a partner sees the ridiculous, absurd, embarrassing and silly physical successes and fails that are not often performed to one’s closest circle of family and friends. The physicality was so effective at reaching inside a viewer to point to our own stored memories that the work as a whole felt more personal an experience than a performance.

Aside from its brilliant movement, W H A L E’s visual and auditory ideas merged familiar Gallim Dance aesthetic—for example neutral lighting interspersed with vivid broad color washes, play with footlight and multi-dimensional shadow, a brilliant sound score blending percussion, pop music, live vocals and electronic sound— with the effective use of nudity and scenic design in the form of a large tarp.  Since vulnerability is a massive component of love, sex and relationship I expected it to be explored throughout the work, but I was surprised to see it not just accomplished through performance but through such aesthetic as simple plastic sheeting as the sole scenic element. The second half of the first act featured a naked man both dancing solo and amidst three clothed peers. He danced vigorously by himself across the space and throughout the milky-white slightly translucent tarp that came to life with light and almost swallowed the man up like a cloud, despite its constant plasticky rustling. In the quartet work he tried to nestle himself into the tight formations of his fellow performers, who continuously seemed to squeeze him out of the group, poignant given his bare state. His sweaty body, after such athleticism, and proximity to the other performers asked us to evaluate comfort zone, to confront that intimacy isn’t always clean and pretty. Beyond what was happening onstage, I found myself tuning in to those sitting around me; who was comfortable, who started to squirm or question where they placed their gaze? The man sitting next to me reached for his female partner’s hand. From across the room I heard a quiet giggle. The woman in front of me tensed up and didn’t know where to look. We revisited naked human bodies at the end of the second act, when each performer meditatively tumbled across the stage in various states of undress, each in an invisible lane, before quickly sprinting for clothes as they began to sing Nat King Cole’s ‘L-O-V-E’ and find space for bows. In this instance vulnerability gave way to humor, another aesthetic choice for another discussion.

While still digesting W H A L E a few days post-show, I was disappointed to read a handful of mediocre reviews in Boston-area papers, amidst what feels like a local “make art literal again” movement.  I absolutely believe each and every viewer should have a different experience, art is thrilling because of its endless varietals. The critical responses to the show, however, seemed to discredit its lack of dance and dance within developed concept which, love or hate what Gallim Dance presented, just wasn’t the case. What I extract from this viewing experience is support for my theory that the need to label and define work takes away from the viewing experience. When we throw away trepidations about what defines a genre and what the rules for the stage space are, we get work as brilliant as Gallim Dance’s W H A L E. I think those individuals that focused on unidentifiable/nontraditional movement vocabulary, verbalizing dancers, and nudity, had a far inferior viewing experience than that of those who simply took in a highly visual and articulate statement on relationship.

tags: dance, contemporary dance, modern dance, postmodern dance, whale, gallim dance, andrea miller, boston, boston dance, critical response
categories: Topics for Discussion, Reflection & Exploration
Wednesday 04.26.17
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Final Report

For anyone still curious about my Roadtrip Dances project from last August, the final report can be found at this link or by clicking the image to the right.

The report discusses my inspirations, frustrations, and general observations amidst more photos and documentation of a trip that spanned fifteen states, fifteen hundred miles, five days, and several public performances in capitols, city centers, parks, rest stops, and abandoned alleys. 

Any insight or question is welcome, as always. I hope it inspires a reader or two to inspect their surroundings and their place within.

Many thanks to Caty, for being an excellent travel companion, and also to those of you who were able to meet us along the trip for neighborhood tours, breaks, and general refreshment for our tired traveling bodies. 

 

tags: road trip, roadtrip dances, improvisation, travel, modern dance, dance everywhere
categories: Roadtrip Dances, Reflection & Exploration
Wednesday 01.11.17
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Documentation: a new duet for 2016

We were joined by the incredible Rod Harris on 10/26/16 who carefully captured some gorgeous moments, documenting one of our very last light-filled rehearsals at Studio @ 550.  The piece, featuring Katie McGrail & Katharina Schier, will debut Nov 11&12 at the Boston University Dance Theatre as part of Luminarium's Portal: Stories from the Edge. 

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tags: photography, photographs, documentation, rod harris, duet, modern dance, postmodern dance, new work, exploration, experiments, ending, portal
categories: Work in Progress
Friday 10.28.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

a new duet for 2016

A few strung together journal entries in attempts to find an ending to my newest performance-based creation.

Some time around the end of spring 2016 I decided I wanted to make something based on communication.  I had a visual in my head of two active figures moving amidst a group of maybe five passive individuals that would serve to occupy space and observe, but not interact. Since August I've been working with Katie McGrail and Katharina Schier - both incredibly engaged performer/participants - to make this come to life.

As these things do, my thought has been evolving and deepening since August as the piece decides where it wants to go.

8/27/16

I’m making a piece for a November production that will be built on the idea of two dancers communicating and interacting through various movement vocabularies and physicalities. The work is currently about communication and its difficulties, as well as the management of personalities and relationship. In my thinking about authenticity, artifice and spectacle I’ve been intrigued in exploring the use of the word histrionic and its identity as a label in various contexts over time. I’m even more interested in exploring what a ‘histrionic’ movement vocabulary might look like. The work will feature two performers utilizing solo work and partner-heavy duet work in addition to an ensemble that serves mainly to watch the piece onstage since listening and observing (or lack thereof) are a huge part of communication.  -From my MFAIA Study Plan

9/31/16

In rehearsals and my own thinking I am digging into how the two active performers, Katie and Katharina, are connected. On a basic level, what would happen if the only other person that you can communicate with was someone you loathe or someone with fundamental differences of opinion? Yes, we have to work to understand each other, how far should one go? How do you act when you aren’t heard (if you act)? I’m also considering communicative ulterior motive, manipulation in communication and as a device, and fluidity in self and relationship. I communicate as the person I am at present, a different person than I was in the past, so what happens if we speed transformation up onstage and the feeling between the two individuals is allowed to evolve? I realize there is a lot here, but as I explore with the dancers I think we will isolate what’s most important to the specific statement we end up making.

Since this is a nonverbal piece, amusing since it’s about communication, instead of words I am building a language from movement and interaction. Yes, dance-makers do this in most every piece we build, but I'm treating this instance differently. It’s very important that both movement and interaction are very authentic— genuinely conceived and executed with minimal superfluous choreography.  Throughout the process I've made some material for Katie and Katharina that requires some form of decision making, be it in how they interact with each other, how they choose to physically absorb the material, or how they outwardly present the movement they possess.

Rehearsal footage demonstrates our beginning efforts to make movement that speaks. In Manipulation Sketch 1 I tried to make the movement dependent on the genuine interactions; the phrase can only really advance with the moments of touch and those instances are real reactions instead of purely choreography. Manipulation Sketch 2 lets the dancers rotate through a pattern of floor work, the dancer not completing the choreographed movement acts as a manipulator before rotating into the set movement, at which point their roles switch. The floor work is set in advance, the counterpart-reaction is purely impulse based. Solo Phrase 1 is an attempt at setting movement that speaks. It isn’t as partner dependent as the other two rehearsal videos, but I tried to give each action cause for happening and gave the dancers autonomy over delivery of the movement.

10/12/16

Last week’s rehearsal primarily consisted of discussion. I tweaked one small moment that was bugging me, and we joked that was all we were able to accomplish, but it was great to sit with Katie and Katharina and get their feelings, input and opinions about the piece and process. Ideas of importance are considering ways to keep the movement present and how we can prevent the pathways of risk taking from becoming stale or comfortable. Another concept to keep present are the idea of the observers joining them on stage, what does that entail and ultimately mean. The themes of surveillance, observation, and power mentioned in group study are intriguing, as are the noted moments of resonance (such as the chin tap) in comparison to their physical experiences. We danced the work one more time to cap off the rehearsal and I feel like it gained both a new dimension with additional understanding and also a sense of clarity.

The first six minutes of this piece have presented a consistent feeling through struggles with power dynamic, all considerations of relationship and tempo and I feel that it’s due for a shift. Compositionally I feel that Katharina has been pushed a lot in the beginning segment of the work and her presence needs to change. I feel a sort of defeat coming for her, a withering up of sorts, so that Katie can discover that there’s no interaction or communication without someone on the other end. Perhaps stripping some of the communication back to find vulnerability before building back into a duet will be the direction I go.

tags: new work, modern dance, postmodern dance, dance theatre, process, exploration, experiments, luminarium dance, luminarium, duet
categories: Work in Progress
Thursday 10.27.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Virginia and Maryland (5)

Sunday, August 14

We left Durham early on the morning of Sunday, August 14 as there were many stops to make en route to Philadelphia. Our first stop was Richmond, it was directly on our path, the capital of the state, and neither my companion or myself had been there, but yet again we encountered a ghost town. The vacancy of Richmond was probably exacerbated by temperatures in the high nineties, but also by the day being a Sunday, something I didn’t consider in advance even after the influx of religious billboards. We drove about, taking in the hot, dusty tan and taupe city, everything looking a bit run down and tired. Signage and fonts from decades past, lots of boarded up windows, very little noise and a hot breeze. I found a wide open intersection with large sidewalks for a performance and yet again performed to those who drove by and those who had to be out in the heat - a handful of homeless men.

To be completely candid, the rest of the Virginia experience was infuriating. I’m sure the state has some beautiful places and redeeming qualities, but my travel through didn’t encounter additional reasons to stop before it was necessary. After the failed stop in Richmond and finding ourselves almost out of gas we found an exit with a gas station and a myriad of fast food restaurants which were the apparent only option for sustenance on a Sunday. We decided a Subway was the best choice of the limited options, though I did conjure up a memory of a dance friend foraging on a performance trip, and as we entered the store we walked right into an intense fight over a dog trapped in a hot car, the dog’s family thinking nothing of their decision. The ignorance demonstrated in the back and forth argument was shocking. Mad for the poor dog (sadly there’s no law in Virginia protecting dogs locked in hot cars or I would've gone vigilante), mad about the ridiculous amount of propaganda splashed on anti-abortion billboards and hateful bumper stickers escorting us up the highway, it took me the entirety of a couple of hours of bumper to bumper traffic to cool down. Then we hit Baltimore.

Baltimore was the first location that made me realize how we were not just traveling through deserted Southeastern cities, but also across a sort of road map of the country’s major recent civil rights events. Thinking about the recent drop of charges in the Freddie Gray trial and trying to put that in the context of the city we were driving and walking through, my brain couldn’t really process much else of what I saw. At surface value I noticed a good amount of brick, taller buildings than previous cities, and lots of praise for the military. I still have some trivial curiosity regarding the popularity of crabs and wonder if anyone in the impoverished neighborhood that also houses Johns Hopkins Hospital could afford to go there. We spotted City Hall, a most ornate building, with green space and a series of fountains in front, two hidden parking spots, mostly abandoned on a Sunday afternoon besides a dozen or so homeless men sleeping on benches. I performed amidst the gardens and fountains, vacant city hall, many sleeping men. I’m not sure if anyone opened their eyes to take it in. I’m not sure if there would be any benefit to viewing what I did. It was just important to do, entering and leaving very quietly. We found a battered dead butterfly stuck in the windshield wiper of the car, adding to the somber feel of the afternoon.

It took getting to northern Maryland to sense the familiarity of the North just around the corner (down the highway), as the trees, highway structures and signage started feeling somewhat familiar. The Mason-Dixon line was palpable; I had several friends try to humorously suggest the shift would be obvious and I didn’t realize this would be somewhat true. When you travel around with an educator, she can tell you who even the obscure figures being commemorated through names of highways and historical sites are, leading to the realization that there are major differences in picking southern and northern important figures for such commemoration.

I can’t help but feel I should go back and find more positive experiences and beautiful sites, it feels like irresponsible reporting of the Southern East coast, but for now I think I need some time.

Richmond, Virginia video click here. Baltimore, Maryland video click here. 

Tiny excerpt from Richmond, VA. Literally no humans anywhere, except those that passed in cars, maybe because it was about 100 degrees. Heat + human confusion + lack of morale = a really lazy, smeary dance for an intersection. Could've been a hallucination but I think the fellow driving the flatbed was smiling... #roadtripdances #roadtrip #richmond #virginia #city #sidewalk #hot #dance #danceeverywhere #whereiseveryone

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 16 likes

Baltimore, MD felt a little somber more than anything at first. This is a tiny clip from a walking sketch. Couldn't resist the light and shadow and built in balance beam. #roadtripdances #roadtrip #notagymnast #walking #light #shadow #baltimore #maryland #dance #danceeverywhere 📸: @caitfay87

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 12 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, road trip, dance, modern dance, improvisation, research, observation, virginia, maryland
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Thursday 09.08.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: From One Carolina to Another (4)

Saturday, August 13

We left Charleston after a final explore on Saturday, August 13 and started our drive to Durham, North Carolina. The drive was a reasonable five hours, at least in comparison to the day before, and accompanied by nearly 70 wacky and fairly insensitive billboards for an aging tourist attraction called ‘Pedro’s South of the Border’ as we progressed up the highway. Billboards advertising pralines and canned goods, okra, mainly, started tapering off as we entered the northern of the Carolinas. While Durham was brand new to me, a friend and fellow MFA candidate had been singing its praises since they day we met (shout out to Amy Unell who also provided an unbelievably comprehensive list of Durham attributes and took us on a killer tour of Duke the next morning), and I was excited to see what we could fit into a condensed stop. 

Happy to be out of the car by late afternoon we walked for hours by indulging our curiosity all over the city, trying to make some sense of the layout and mostly failing. Durham sprawls, it is wide open, there is a lot of diversity in building heights, minimal signage, and what isn’t brick is very light stone.  It’s an excellent city for getting lost and the experiences that come from wandering without purpose; at one point we walked into a cupcake shop's birthday party and were welcomed to stay (southern hospitality is definitely a thing). Yet again it was incredibly hot outside, temperatures were in the high nineties with no sign of breeze, and the only signs of city life were a long line snaking down the block outside an ice cream shop that didn’t pop up until after dark, a trickle of individuals headed into a Lyle Lovett concert at Durham Performing Arts Center and the distant roar of a large group of people at a minor league Durham Bulls baseball game. Perhaps that’s where everyone was.

I had several thoughts wander through my head as we traveled and took in our surroundings. In efforts to understand the prevalence of bulls everywhere we stumbled upon the history of old tobacco and wandered through the converted tobacco buildings. I am torn with how intrigued I was with the old brick buildings and compounds, despite their origin in the needs of a terrible industry, but their history was alive and I couldn't help but feel a sort of attraction to the old brick buildings. Towards the end of the evening we were approached by a homeless man in a three piece suit and hat asking for money. I was taken by surprise both by his level of dress and the amount of clothing in relation to the extreme heat, but remembered that the man we encountered in Charleston asking for money was also fairly formally dressed. I’m very curious about this trend, but didn’t feel that it was my place to ask about his attire out of the blue. The next morning, after some incredible avocado toast that deserves special mention, Amy and her pup Luna drove us around Duke. As we saw some of the more iconic sites of the University, the Duke chapel among other landmarks, I wondered about the aesthetic and function of the college town. It felt so much like Amherst in a Southern way, perhaps there's a secret formula for developing such towns. Additionally, Durham felt fairly liberal and I know a lot of fantastic open-minded individuals that live or lived in North Carolina. How do such small liberal pockets easily exist in a state that can otherwise pass such atrocities as HB2 (the bathroom bill)? I collected these thoughts, questions and observations, unable to dive in to any of them with brain that was rapidly becoming saturated, and hope to revisit them as I continue breaking down my travels.

Durham was where I had one of my most meaningful connections and performance experiences of the entire trip. Amidst our long walk all over the city we found a mural in an empty lot. Sitting across the lot, staring into the mural, was a man in ripped, dirty clothing, speaking to himself, who identified himself as homeless. I was interested in the swoopy simple lines on the mural as a sort of dance language, and asked if it would be ok if I filmed a quick dance at the site. As I performed movement that was awkward and clunky as I tried to move in heat and sandals on gravel, he sat rapt by my improvisation. Upon finishing he enthusiastically expressed how much he enjoyed the impromptu performance. I was excited by the fact that perhaps I enhanced someone’s day-to-day experience with my project. This felt like progress, despite not having specifically defined sub-goals to accomplish during the trip. 

For video click here.

Adding some invisible ink to this Durham, NC mural with its hand-sized line drawings. Isolation, getting stuck, dead ends, swirl. Our friend at the very end wouldn't give his name, but was down with being part of the video and viewing experience and expressed excitement, intrigue and a little confusion afterwards. #roadtripdances #roadtrip #durham #northcarolina #mural #improv #invisibleink #dance #danceeverywhere #streetart #literally

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 24 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, modern dance, improvisation, observations, dance, north carolina, research, experiments, durham, road trip
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Tuesday 09.06.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Charleston, South Carolina (3)

Friday, August 12-Saturday, August 13

At about 8pm on Friday night I found myself processing the day by standing on my tiptoes in the middle of a swimming pool at the back of a parking lot in Charleston, my face at the level of pedestrians’ feet as they walked down the cobblestoned sidewalks. For the first twenty minutes of precarious balance I was accompanied by a man with a cigar; we didn’t make eye contact, a sort of performance in itself. As durational things often are, there was something soothing and meditative about standing on my toes in neck-deep water and slowly swirling my arms back and forth in the water to maintain balance, letting my mind wander. At least it was until a gang of bats came out and started dive bombing the surface of the water, ending my solitude and thinking.

Charleston is a beautiful city, it looks almost as if Boston’s Beacon Hill neighborhood uprooted itself and went on a tropical vacation - Federal-style architecture amidst palm trees and sweltering heat. Sweltering heat, I'm assuming, led to the lack of other people in Charleston which was quite strange. In what seemed like it would be a fairly touristy area (my travel companion Caty had been there before and reported packed streets) we saw just a trickle of human life. This did make it a great evening for exploring as we picked a nearby deserted street at random and walked it until it ended, at that point choosing the next street. Wandering at its best, accompanied by the incessant chirping of cicadas. I found my body easily adapting to the slow pace of the city, perhaps it was the humid heat in the high nineties. Shedding my sidewalk-racer inner Bostonian reminded me of the time I took an hour to walk down a street in seacoast Maine, heightening my ability to actually see, but in Charleston I saw sneaky messages inscribed in a smooth-barked tree, a hidden cemetery, locals sizing up tourists before manners provoked a smile, and tons of iron work. I wonder if the multitude of ornate iron gates and shutters on townhouse windows played into the sense of modesty I felt - women I passed on the street, while stylishly dressed, were quite covered up for extreme heat - or the idea of keeping others out.

The next morning, Saturday August 13, I performed in Washington Square. The park is frequented by regular tour groups, I felt that I had a chance for my tiny performance to be observed in this vacant city, and also it was inspiringly filled with gorgeous live oak trees, moss breathily dangling from branches. It was a fun performance for me but oddly everyone that stopped by as part of the tour seemed to look away, as if Southern manners provided me a bit of modesty for my strange park outburst. One very well-dressed homeless man lingered, perhaps he watched my movement exploration.

What left me unsettled about Charleston was that it felt like going to Oz. Inside its historic perimeter is a lot of beauty, calm and Southern sweetness, but it felt somewhat like a facade. We visited in the middle of Charleston Pride, and neither saw or heard a single sign that Pride was underway until encountering two decorated twenty-somethings in a Starbucks as an older man heckled their efforts. I’ve never been to the South and the blatant differences in Civil War and civil rights viewpoints from my education, and Northern upbringing definitely made for some culture shock. In Charleston I performed in a park situated near a slave market-turned-museum, and we walked past the site where a maniac tried to start a race war by shooting nine people in a church just last year. A short amount of time after we drove out of the well-off city we were looking at serious poverty, sites of education crises (not to mention the occasional Confederate flag which, history and free speech aside, is nauseating to look at). Income inequity obviously exists in the North, it runs rampant in the Boston area, but maybe it takes seeing something elsewhere to be fully aware of it or to take action in the place you call home. 

Taking these glimpses of a new part of America into my thoughts and sitting with the discontent, while also recognizing the great exploration, food and scenery and simmering on my performance experience, I spent the majority of the drive to Durham, North Carolina with a very full brain. 

For video click here. 

Excerpt from a distraction-packed convo with GWashington on the topic of gorgeous Spanish moss hanging in the live oak trees. (Hair plays the role of moss.) Partially viewed by three meandering tour groups, a homeless man, a couple of passing tired horses pulling tourists... fully viewed by the filming @caitfay87 ! #roadtripdances #roadtrip #charleston #southcarolina #dance #danceeverywhere #georgewashington #greenery #liveoak #trees #tourists #improv

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tags: roadtrip dances, roadtrip, dance, modern dance, performance, performing, south carolina, charleston, wandering
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Friday 09.02.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Guest Post: Rethinking Q & As

A Note from Kim: Last fall I wrote a blog post regarding dance audiences' wariness of 'understanding' a modern dance performance instead of just sitting back, taking it in, and discussing genuinely without feeling the need to 'get it right'. Read the original post here. In my ramblings on how to remedy this issue I forgot about a major tool... Monkeyhouse's SPORKS (this will make sense if you keep reading), which so brilliantly and humanly ease audiences into talking about dance. Karen Krolak has graciously contributed the following entry to explain her monkey-methods for the betterment of dance viewers everywhere, and I'm grateful for her kind reminder that we as artists can help our audiences feel comfortable and get involved. Don't forget to share your thoughts post-reading!

Rethinking Q & As

By Karen Krolak

Leading a SPORK after Luminarium’s Spektrel at the Multicultural Arts Center. I am the one with the spider fascinator on. Goofy headwear also helps make the conversation less intimidating.  (Photo by Jason Ries)

Leading a SPORK after Luminarium’s Spektrel at the Multicultural Arts Center. I am the one with the spider fascinator on. Goofy headwear also helps make the conversation less intimidating.  (Photo by Jason Ries)

Before Monkeyhouse’s tour in 2001, my dear friend Fred, a family therapist, suggested that Monkeyhouse organized regular company meetings to discuss problems of life on the road. Each person who brought a complaint, however, had to also bring at least two ideas for how to improve this problem. It was a helpful strategy that lowered the tension level in the van. Oddly enough, it is also how I discovered that everyone went to sleep much earlier if they put me in a separate room…but I digress.

One of the things that artists and audiences frequently bemoan is the post show Q & A. Raise your hand if you have ever been to one that has felt awkward, stilted, or just plain uninformative.

Exactly.

While it could be easy to simply stop attending/hosting Q & As, they can provide necessary insight for both the artist and the audience. Especially now that the number of dance writers is decreasing at newspapers and magazines, these dialogues become even more valuable when done productively.

So in the spirit of Fred’s wisdom, Monkeyhouse began brainstorming about how to improve the Q and A process. We began by renaming our events as SPORKS -forking out questions and stirring up conversations about choreography. This may seem like a small detail but reframing the experience to be about questions and not answers made a huge difference for getting people on both sides to relax a bit more. Nobody is seen as the all knowing expert. Audience members no longer feel ignorant. Artists no longer bear the onus of being able to answer every question thrown at them.

Second, we invite someone to be the moderator. By having someone begin the questions, you do not have to wait for a brave soul to finally speak up. It also gives the artist some reassurance that the first question will not attack their creation. In a best case scenario, the conversation quickly spreads to comments and questions from both sides and the moderator can recede a bit. I love it when audience members begin debating ideas at our SPORKS. Even if that does not happen, however, the moderator can keep people chatting and avoid those pregnant pauses where everyone just stares expectantly at each other.

In choosing our moderators, we look for people who are curious, humble and naturally smile a lot. This last quality may sound frivolous but smiling at people as you ask questions can help open them up. Russell Holman, host of Luminarium’s Backlight Boston, is an excellent moderator by the by if you are ever looking for someone.

It helps tremendously if the first couple of questions encourage the artist to tell a story about their process or about their background. Not only does this prevent people from giving one word answers but it also humanizes the artist. In turn, we find that the audience tends to respond with more supportive questions rather than with harsh criticisms or off topic comments.

While they often occur as pre- show or post-show events, Monkeyhouse’s SPORKS can happen at any point in the production of a work and they can happen anywhere. We have had them at people’s homes, in restaurants, etc. Sometimes just changing the venue so that everyone is sitting around a table can make the conversation more lively.

Obviously, there are many more ways to improve Q & As and I would love to hear about ideas that are working in other organizations. Liz Lerman’s Critical Response Process is a marvelous guide for people who are looking for more resources.

 

Are you an artist? Audience member?

Have you had a positive or negative talkback experience? Attended a Monkeyhouse SPORK?

None of the above?

Any and all thoughts are welcome below!

Karen Krolak is a free range collaborator and a curator of experiences based in Boston, MA. Since 2000, she has been the co-founder/Artistic Director of Monkeyhouse, an award winning non profit that connects communities with choreography. Her creative works involve some combination of  choreography, text, fiber arts, and storytelling and have been presented regularly throughout New England and in New York, San Francisco, Chicago, Philadelphia, Rome, and Winnipeg, Her favorite collaborators are Nicole Harris, Jason Ries, Kwaq7aj', Ralph Farris, Anne Howarth, and Barry Duncan and she is a huge fan of Luminarium. She earned her B.A. in Linguistics at Northwestern University and is currently pursuing an MFA in Interdisciplinary Arts at Sierra Nevada College. Much of her recent work has centered around the theme of finding physical poetry in imperfect bodies and around mourning as she grapples with the car accident that killed her mother, father, and brother. 

 

 

tags: dance, modern dance, boston, boston dance, talking about dance, thinking about dance, monkeyhouse, sporks, q&a, critical response, guest post, karen krolak, is it dance
categories: Topics for Discussion
Thursday 04.28.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

all-important

Note: This opinion piece speaks frequently of art and entertainment; it’s important to note that I’m referencing each in regards to the performing arts, specifically dance and theatre, as those fields are what I know. Perhaps the content relates to visual art, music and writing, but I’m not familiar enough with the worlds of those genres to comfortably discuss.

I often worry that the reason I make art isn’t important enough, the art itself isn’t important enough. Yes, this is completely ridiculous and self-defeating, but as someone who enjoys not just making but observing and participating in the art of others I’m very aware of the distinction of what’s purpose-driven and what is just pretty. As an individual who choreographs, designs and directs for the purposes of both making art and making a paycheck, often taking on gigs that aren’t as meaningful as the work I’m driven to create, I’m hyper-aware of a subconscious pull to ground my work in purpose (i.e. even if I’m working on a basic musical with kids there is still an immense take away from the experience for the participants), and am very aware of the boundaries of and gap between art and entertainment. I think it is an honor and a privilege to be able to be an artist for several reasons - reasons that would triple the length of this blog entry - and therefore believe there’s a responsibility to use one’s artist status to communicate, share, improve the community.

The debate on and space between art and entertainment will likely exist forever, and while my own internal discussion continues infinitely, my art-self-awareness was heightened when I started grad school a few months ago and by much of my recent reading. To clarify, I think both art and entertainment serve a purpose in society. I questioned this opinion over the last few months while learning about the incredibly talented artists also in my MFA program, many addressing the issues running rampant in current society and making important social change through their work.  I deeply questioned this opinion in the last few weeks when an essay I read described work made for aesthetic and pleasure as projecting an image of “a better order”, consequently taking the pressure off society to change. This is a bold charge and quite honestly true of entertainment, but I think that’s why entertainment exists - as a foil to art.

Art is participatory, thought-provoking, a statement, however subtle or brash it is presented. It is an exploration, an experience, carefully crafted by the artist who needed to create it. We attend art to think and to be challenged; art is about the content being presented, whereas entertainment focuses on the presentation. Entertainment is an escape in its tendency to provide easy enjoyment, and shock and awe. I go to musicals to be impressed by their lavish design and their unrealistic but wholly enjoyable tendency to break out into song and dance, to the ballet to see athletes exhibit their technical prowess. I enjoy myself at such events, but I’m never overly moved or challenged as the content itself, outside of glamorous trimmings and brilliant individual performances, is often too familiar and simplified.  One perk: entertainment does have the potential to be a gateway to art. I know several individuals that started attending dance performances by way of the ballet and other spectacle-heavy types of dance (think So You Think You Can Dance-esque), that slowly but surely have started taking chances and venturing deeper into art territory. Perhaps these two aren’t simply stand alone foils, but the two extremes on a possible-to-traverse scale.

All that being said, I think the balance of consumption of art and entertainment is far from ideal. If the average individual made as regular an effort to see impactful performances, projects and movements as they did the latest blockbuster, the millionth tour of Wicked, the annual Nutcracker, I can only imagine how different society would be. I think most opt for entertainment because we are afraid of being challenged. We are conditioned with the notion that the degree of understanding equals success, most students go through school getting numbered grades, the highest ranking student getting a special title at graduation, and there are many other similar situations through one’s life. I can imagine such a conditioned society has a hard time in a setting where they’re being provoked to think at an often abstract stimulus, without ‘right’ and ‘wrong’.


As I approach the end of this blog post I am revisiting my first sentence: I often worry that the reason I make art isn’t important enough, the art itself isn’t important enough. (A quick justification - what artist doesn’t spend some of their time questioning the validity of their work?) While I deviated from this initial thought, what I’ve learned from the examination of art and entertainment is that my art is important because it takes place in space and time, at a moment that was once the present moment. What I’ve learned about my own work by reading, thinking and applying is that I consistently create work on the human experience, social interaction and behavior.  This isn’t a catch-all; it, too, is important to examine commentary, narrative and abstract glimpses from the world we live in.  A recent work about artificiality, performance and interaction, a duet enacting a complicated relationship between females and a secret, a piece exploring trust in a system and overthrowing authoritative power - all of these come from my world and ask an audience to see and perhaps formulate an opinion upon these presented situations. The art, mine and that of others, is important because I cared enough to present something I needed to say in the best way I could possibly find to say it.  Similarly, perhaps entertainment is important due to society’s need to escape… and one step further, perhaps my need to explore my world and present it as an artist and my simultaneous need to be an audience member (not just for art, but for entertainment) are what are butting heads and causing this conflict-ridden internal discussion.

 

tags: art, entertainment, thoughts, grad school, why, art vs entertainment, boston dance, boston, modern dance, theatre, musicals, ballet, importance
categories: Topics for Discussion
Monday 11.23.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

rabbit hole cycles: Spektrel retrospective

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Photos by Ryan Carollo from Luminarium's Oct 2015 production, 'Spektrel'.

Once upon a time (otherwise known as earlier in 2015) I set out to make a visually driven trip of a piece, simultaneously charmingly quirky/wacky and terrifying in what it could expose. As the work started coming together I learned that I wanted to seriously challenge but not entirely alienate an audience in exploring performance, the performance space, artificiality, social behavior/interaction, light, shadow and the personas of my five very willing and open-minded performers.

(Dig through old posts if you want to know more about the process.)

What I discovered after watching the piece over tech, dress, press night and a three night run, was that we are far from done with this work. There is so much more to learn, unearth and create... this is something that I've never done before post-show. Post-OBERON I'm looking forward to diving back in, but until then, check back here often for more thinking aloud.

If you caught the piece last weekend and haven't yet shared/want to share your thoughts I'd love to hear them, below!

tags: spektrel, modern dance, postmodern dance, dance theatre, rabbit hole cycles, boston dance, boston, cambridge, luminarium, luminarium dance
categories: Work in Progress
Monday 11.02.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

rabbit hole cycles: new thoughts

It’s important to me that I continue to discover and clarify themes in this work. My current opinion of rabbit hole cycles is that it inspects a performer’s role in a new space and in changing environments, and the roles of the individuals in a group, in a quirky performative sense. The space(s)/worlds in the piece are far from real, and yet they are indicative of real life; a crowded street carnival or parade, the rehearsal space, a unpopulated outdoor space. The performers’ actions and impulses on stage are far from how people act in real life, and yet they’re representative of the human condition. The piece explores behavior in space, a closed experiment of sorts, while exploring artificiality in performance and day to day life. The dancers’ over the top faces and gestures are artificial moments usually confined to theatrical settings, but artificiality is similarly prevalent in the normal everyday life we experience. How often do respond “I’m ok” instead of speaking our minds when asked the question “how are you”?

More questions for the piece to explore: How do we act in a variety of new spaces, how do we act to each other, when do we perform, when are we the most artificial, how does being part of a group affect our actions, what happens when the dynamic of a group changes, is it possible to escape a cycle? References I’ve been exploring and utilizing throughout the process include the sound that I previously mentioned (Rabbit Rabbit’s Hush, Hush, Timber Timbre’s Run From Me), Dr. Seuss’ Star-bellied Sneetches, The Truman Show (yes, the 90s Jim Carrey movie), the work of M.C. Escher, Lewis Carroll and more.

tags: spektrel, dance, modern dance, dance theatre, rabbit hole cycles, theatre, luminarium, boston dance
categories: Work in Progress
Friday 10.16.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Working with Sound

Often when I engage in a conversation about what I do, the topic of music comes up. I'm frequently asked 'how I find music to make dance to', which is hard to answer since I so rarely work that way.

My process typically begins with making movement based on thought; the generated material is soundless, or danced over something minimal to set a general tone. When I start this way I can clarify what I'm trying to say and determine how I can then use sound to develop and enhance the idea.  I often end up either making the piece some sort of sonic environment to live inside, or listening to music endlessly - live, recorded, recommended by friends, stumbled upon by accident - to find a fitting match. This is not to say I don't ever work narratively with music, it's just less common in my methodology. When I do work from music, I gravitate towards work with certain character of its own that demands I create movement to it - it often feels like my current Bach piece choreographs itself - or I opt to work alongside a composer to make dance that compliments music and vice versa.

However there is a third way music comes into my work (and probably many more ways beyond that), which is music as strictly early-phase inspiration. I experienced this to a new level of intensity over the last several months.

In the early days of planning for Spektrel I was lucky enough to get to join the talented musicians of Jaggery on stage at the Museum of Fine Arts for a collaborative piece in their da Vinci inspired show. The opener was Rabbit Rabbit, a duo comprised of musicians Carla Kihlstedt and Matthias Bossi, and while at the time I was unfamiliar with their music, I was so quickly blown away by their gorgeous sound and lyrics. Towards the end of their set they played a song called Hush, Hush, and I fell in love on first listen. More importantly, the song catalyzed early ideas for a new work (coincidentally/tentatively already named rabbit hole cycles at the time) that had been slowly marinating in my brain.

Rabbit Rabbit's Hush, Hush is beautiful, an ambient acoustic lullaby that morphs into a creepy sing-song omen and then to terrifying rock ballad before returning to its original sound. Live, it was haunting, lush, devastating, lifting. (Possibly interesting to note: before I had the good fortune to be exposed to Rabbit Rabbit's Hush, Hush, I was struck by Timber Timbre's Run From Me - which also borders sweet and scary - as I thought about my new work.) Each transition to a new style in Hush, Hush is seamless, and unquestionably the right decision for where the lyrics wander. As for the lyrics, they paint very specific and familiar images through scenic metaphors; vague and yet incredibly universal glimpses into life. The music, words and flow to the song grabbed my interest in such an intense manner that I found myself painting mental pictures for several bits of the song. These in-head images started growing into the seeds of a warped piece that transpires across several separate worlds in the same stage space, like all of the events transpiring in one house, one life, that Rabbit Rabbit's Carla Kihlstedt sings of. 

Now here's the weird part.  After making a new piece that was so heavily fertilized by the composition, performance and overall feel of a song, there was no way I could use said-song in this piece (even if the artists obliged)! It is just too complete a creation of its own to think I could/should add anything to it. It should exist just as it is forever. Also, for all of the inspiration and thought Hush, Hush provoked, its sonic aesthetic didn't end up as the perfect fit for what I was making (I decided instead to utilize a lot of altered sound from varied environments to make a new world for this work).

While rabbit hole cycles has developed its own very specific identity as we explore, experiment and refine in the studio, I'm incredibly grateful to have snuck into the MFA audience before I danced that night as so much of the development of my new work is due to what my ears and brain took in in that seven minute song.

To the artists reading this post, how do YOU work with sound? What are your experiences of being heavily influenced by visual/auditory stimuli that aren't visible in your final product?

Side note: Take a minute to check out the musicians/groups mentioned above, maybe even more than a minute... I promise it'll be time well spent.

Spektrel tickets and info here!

tags: rabbit rabbit, rabbit hole cycles, modern dance, spektrel, inspiration, music, creation, composition, sound
categories: Work in Progress
Monday 10.12.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

rabbit hole cycles: light experiments

What feels like a million years ago we showed a glimpse of my new work, rabbit hole cycles, at the Luminarium Gala. At that point I knew what the work was about, knew roughly what I wanted to accomplish, and knew the deadline to find a stable stopping point (yikes). More on the content of the work another time, though. 

 

Since the gala, I started a grad program to work on my MFA (as you probably know) and continue to work away at this new piece. I've never been so actively aware of my process, and as I reflect on my work I've been generating a series of screenshots from rehearsal footage to take snapshot assessments of where I'm at! In case the world is interested, one of my major goals was to house this piece in multiple worlds, all located in one stage space. I am differentiating these worlds through the use of light, so it's vital that each has a very unique look and feel, while the light-source/technique is fully integrated into the work so that it doesn't feel gimmicky or extraneous. The piece is also designed to repeat endlessly (with the dancers' roles switching), if only we had concurrent stage spaces. Someday...

The images below are really rough and experimental, of course! Most looks involve cheap clamp lights as placeholders (there's only so much a gal can haul through Central Square), and other makeshift equipment. I'm SO excited to show off the polished lighting and other scenic elements of this wacky piece but you'll have to come check out Spektrel if you want to be the first to see it! Tickets here.

(click on images to view larger)

World I: Multidimensional Shadow

World 2: SIlhouette vs Shadow Interplay

World 3: Stripped. Hanging Bulb/Mobile Light Source

 

What do you think? Curious enough to come fall down the rabbit hole with us?

tags: work, modern dance, rabbit hole cycles, new, light, experiments, spektrel, rehearsal, rehearsal shots
categories: Work in Progress
Tuesday 10.06.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Authenticity

As I write, reflect, watch and create my way through my graduate studies, I've discovered an increasing frequency of the word authentic popping up in my writing.

Why? Authenticity is the most important quality in my interaction with art, a constant goal for my own practice, and subsequently a lens through which I view performance.

Why this blog post? As I recently thought about a personal definition for the word, I realized that while I value it to the same high degree in both creation and performance, I define it differently for each of these situations. 

Yes, this is what life is like when your full-time job is pursuing an MFA.

Authenticity in Creation

To me, authentic in terms of the creative process means the artist is finding genuine ways to express what needs to be said in message, medium and means.

If you didn't catch on, this is an opinion piece. I don't intend any judgment against those who don't agree or work in this way, nor do I practice what I preach without fail every now and then. 

The message, what your art attempts to say, is something one cares about, believes in, stands behind; even the exploration of a sudden interest in a new idea can count. The passion and care for the message should carry through as you create, even if you get into a rut or fall in and out of love with any part of the piece itself. In theory (and I have a long career ahead to test this, let's check in a couple of decades down the road), the authenticity behind and commitment to the message could even be the jury for what stays and what goes. What truly fits what you're trying to say? Is there an actual need for the extraneous stuff besides not wanting to cut things time was spent on making? Perhaps you're making work about extraneous stuff; then, I suppose, it would stay. Bring on the high kicks and confetti.

When thinking about authenticity in terms of medium I don't mean one should fiercely commit to a sole genre, or the pursuit of showcasing stellar technique (to be honest I think sometimes technique gets in the way of expression, though it's a good thing to have in one's toolkit). What I believe is that the medium should be the best possible vehicle for the message. Even if it's five different genres delivered at once, or a painstakingly crafted classical ballet abandoned for throat singing, or simply standing in an empty space and reading a letter. 

I view means as the logistical process of making a piece, and it's easy to stay on track here; either make the piece with full effort, or don't. It's usually evident (as a viewer) when the maker stopped caring about their work, or perhaps ran out of time for a particular section or component. If you don't care to make something to the best of your current ability, why should someone care to watch it?

While my rambling thoughts could continue forever, it's this trifecta of message, medium and means, all carefully attended to, that makes an authentic piece. (Though I bet we can think of more important m-words if we try...)

Authentic Performance

In performance, I define authenticity as embodiment on both a mental and physical level. Authentic is the performer that finds the reason to be truly present onstage, the reasons for doing the action they've been given to do and finding a new and genuine interest in doing it multiple times. It's a serious skill; you know you're watching such a high caliber performer when you can't look away. I'm not entirely sure how this works outside of theatre, dance, or forms where the human body delivers the content directly. I would be curious to know how this exists for those that perform through an instrument. 

Authentic performance can be informal as well. I personally don't enjoy 'performing', but I do love to move. Lately when I'm improvising or moving without agenda, I try to match my mind to my body, following physiological impulses and making them into an internal dialogue, or my body to my mind, letting the thoughts that roll through my mind influence how my body corresponds. Very similar to authentic movement, but in my case the internal choreographer is sporadically distracted by aesthetic as I move.

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That's all I've got on authenticity, for now. It was important for me to personally define what it means for art to be authentic as I carry on looking for it in my own work and that of others, historic and contemporary. If you got through the entire thing, congrats! 

What is YOUR single most important quality in making, performing or viewing of art?

tags: dance, dance theatre, performance, modern dance, theory, choreography, composition, authentic, embodiment, authentic movement
categories: Topics for Discussion
Tuesday 09.22.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

Performers' Response: A fugue for a fugue

Yesterday I wrote a blog post based on the process of creating a fugue. Original post can be found here. As part of my grad/MFA work, I've been discussing process through correspondence with my advisor who suggested I might give the dancers a chance to respond if I blogged about a process that so directly involved each of them. Exciting! Many thanks to Merli V. Guerra, Brittany Lombardi and Amy Mastrangelo once again, who are integral to the piece I'm creating and the spirit inside it!

Amy

Historically, I like Kim's movement. Kim is a sweeping, swooping, jumping choreographer. Her phrases are big and wide. They stretch to all corners of the studio, to all seats in the house. They travel, they move you, they take you places. Long lines of energy shooting past the physical limits of our extremities. 

This is the kind of dance that I especially like to dance. 

So, suffice it to say, I was a bit concerned when in our first rehearsal for the "Fugue," Kim presented us with paper, sheets of music, dotted incessantly with teeny tiny black notes all over the scales. They were everywhere and abundant. They were frantically scattered about the page in no seemingly logical order, as if a clumsy waiter had spilled fresh ground pepper all over someone's beautiful song. 

We're gonna Kim-move to this? 

Well, as it turns out, yes we are. 

The "Fugue" is turning into a top favorite Kim piece for me, and that's not just because it's topical in this piece of writing. It's making me think in a way that I've never had to dance before. It's forcing, forcibly forcing me to listen and hear music in an entirely new and active way...and also dance while I'm doing that. As we work along in this piece and things become more and more ingrained and natural to our bodies, I'm noticing that I've started to hear the choreography in the music. While I truly know nothing of notes and the letters assigned to them, I can hear where my arms are supposed to be, or the jump that I'm already late for (oops.) 

Even tonight I had to remind myself, in rehearsal, that I really ought to count the music, use the tools that I've been using as a dancer for the past one thousand years. But then again, this is an entirely new experience of dancing to music, or rather, dancing WITH the music, and maybe even, dancing BECAUSE THE MUSIC SAID SO. I remember once performing as a high schooler in my studio's dance recital, and I caught myself, on stage, realizing that I wasn't counting at all. I was just doing the routine that had been drilled into my body after hours and hours of rehearsal. It was exhilarating. I felt like a real dancer, to move so seamlessly with the music, quite literally without even thinking about it. 

This is a similar, and yet slightly more enlightening experience. While I look forward to further drilling of this routine (my muscles need to make some memories, if you know what I mean) it's fascinating that, from the very very beginning, it wasn't about the counts, but it was very much about the music. While that seems like it should be an inherent concept in dance...it really isn't. The counts always go to the music; you can always find the 5, 6, 7, 8, somewhere in the song you're listening to. This time around, we're listening for our parts, we're listening for our movement, and oh, by the way, maybe there are numbers in there, somewhere, but don't worry about them just yet. 

So truthfully, when I come to rehearsal, I don't come ready to dance as I do come ready to think. And listen. And hear. And that's not entirely appropriate, because even though I need to think, and listen, and hear, Kim-movement is still Kim-movement, and even though the Fugue is fugue-ing at a thousand black dots a minute, my arms still need to stretch, my legs still need to swoop, and unless I'm instructed otherwise, my toes still need to point. 

Oh and also, there are two other dancing humans on stage, who are occasionally tethered to me. 

It's active, physically and mentally. It's hard, physically and mentally. It's slightly absurd, but all the best things are, aren't they? 

Despite our beloved Kim's calm, cool, and eternally relaxed and easy-going demeanor, this piece is not easy. But when has a bit of a challenge ever detracted from our love of dance? When has it ever stopped us? Um, I'll tell you; it hasn't, and it certainly won't now.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Merli

The other night when Kim first approached me about writing a response to her post on creating the fugue, she phrased it as "My adviser would love me to gather your take on the challenges of this work, from the dancer's perspective." Only one tiny problem… What challenges? 

For me, this piece has been a delightfully intuitive break from the typical Kim Holman rehearsal process (and believe me when I say that I love the typical KH process!). Allow me to give you a little tour of the typical work flow when Kim creates—having been in many of her works over the years. We, as dancers, enter the studio with only a vague understanding of the work as a whole. Gradually, through experimentation, and the additions of phrasing and sense of purpose, a piece unfolds—with the final step being the ultimate layering of a finely-tuned sound score that magically fits our own internal timing of each moment, movement, and phrase.

Let me boil that down: Typically, the musical timing is taken off of us, and appears at the very end of the process!

Now, welcome to the fugue: A piece dictated by the rigorous timing of a musical genius long since departed. Yes, the first rehearsal was without a doubt daunting, with Kim showing us a color-coded sheet music nightmare of notes, while the end result of a perfectly coordinated fugue seemed distant. Yet within the first two rehearsals, it became apparent to this musically-driven performer that this would be one of the simplest, most straightforward Kim Holman pieces I've performed to date! 

The beauty of the fugue from the dancer's perspective is that not only am I always easily aware of my own timing and choreographic phrasing (as Kim's done a wonderful job of carefully linking each movement phrase to fit the musical phrasing naturally), but I'm also constantly aware of my fellow performers' movements as well. The three lines of the fugue provide me with an auditory reminder of what Amy's up to as I perform phrase E and what Brittany's up to as I perform phrase B, as if an audible cheat sheet.

And thus, the very reason this piece is incredibly challenging for the choreographer is the same reason the piece is so simple for the performers. Through Bach's complex structuring, Kim's work has been multiplied, while ours has been simplified. Yet I would be remiss if I did not in part credit this ease to Kim's planning behind the scenes. Without that careful planning, I'm sure all four of us would be sitting there scratching our heads week after week, as Bach giggles with glee from the grave.
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Brittany

During the first few moments of our first rehearsal, I have to admit I was a bit confused; how was I supposed to interpret the notes within this piece of music without losing complete self control? The rhythm was complex, bubbly and somewhat hard to follow count-wise. Unfortunately I never had interest in learning an instrument growing up, needless to say I am kicking myself for it now! 

 

Within the first few weeks of rehearsals, after looking at Mardi Gras color coded sheets of music, a trippy YouTube illustration of notes in the composition and observing the movement quality on video, I discovered that I can learn how to follow music like a pianist. Tonight's rehearsal focused on the beginning stages of the prelude, a six minute integration of speedy pitches and mind boggling rhythmic obstacles. Each time I went through the motions of the choreography, my body slowly became one with the music; so much so that I forgot to count!  For the next six weeks my goal is to be as invested in remembering accents within the different sections of the music as I am with becoming comfortable with sequences of steps. 

 

tags: modern dance, bach, fugue, spektrel, rehearsal, process, music
categories: Work in Progress
Thursday 09.10.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 2
 

A fugue for a fugue

As a classically-trained pianist (in a past life) I have an inherent love for the challenge that is a Bach fugue.  While difficult to play well I have always thought there was no comparison to the satisfaction of mastering Bach. There's a sort of pompous sassy joy to be found as your fingers romp over specific bits of rhythm, runs and jumps all over the keyboard.  I could always luxuriate in Mozart but Bach made me sit up straight and bounce around as I played - especially the Well Tempered Clavier preludes and fugues. 

That bit of nostalgic romanticism aside, a few months ago I had the urge to create a new trio based on the idea that 'getting there is half the battle', exploring lateness, procrastination, the inability to get things done and proceed through life triumphantly and efficiently. Funny and a bit depressing (maybe just maybe hitting close to attention-deficit-home), and entirely set to Bach. A movement of the piece would be based on life/unforeseen circumstances getting in the way, another would be a sort of real life-chutes-and-ladders where the dancers got in their own and each others' ways as they crossed the space, and the third would be a sort of examination of internal and external distraction and discontent.

(This is where the fugue comes in...)

Obviously the second movement of the piece had to be a fugue! Well Tempered Clavier's Fugue no.2 in C minor? Absolutely. Three dancers, three voices, a tone that varied from bubbly to stately, the first time in the piece they would actually interact with each other through movement... it made perfect sense. Then came the idea of setting a fugue to a fugue; not just creating movement that corresponded to the music as a whole, but breaking the music into its three voices, digging through each of the three parts to find the content and repeating motifs and phrases, and making a compositional structure that could snap into the form of the fugue. Sure, there would be importance placed on the movement corresponding with the initial musical statement, but all of the other content and musical phrases wouldn't be swept under the rug as they, too, carry the piece from point a to point b.

(For those of you playing at home that are entirely lost, learn about fugues here or through a quick video here.)

How?

How quickly became the challenge. My dancers are incredible and rhythmic and eager to learn and master, but as it turned out, no one else spent babyhood to age 18 training at the keyboard. Turns out the knowledge I took for granted wasn't entirely an easy concept to teach - especially as I felt out of practice myself.

 

We started by listening to the piece as a whole and watching this terrible-sounding visualization.

Next step: I whipped up some color-coordinated sheet music as something to use as a visual aide as we continued watching and listening, just to capture the sense of motion in each voice and perhaps timing. 

Above: Mardi-gras highlighted sheet music and a really chaotic chart! 

Below: a first stab at fugue form

I isolated similar phrases and motifs, breaking each voice into several parts (A through E, with some phrases played backwards/with other modifications). Each part got a set movement idea that I hoped would propel the action through space; for example A is the main theme and sends the dancer forwards, D (what starts at measure 9 in the lowest voice) runs down the keyboard dizzily, stopping here and there to regain power and focus. 

KHolman 2015 - Getting there is half the battle.

The last technique was plucking out the phrases on the baby grand in the studio as the dancers danced them individually. This was a sort of depressing reminder of how out of shape my fingers are, but helpful as a learning tool.

As each dancer learned her sequence of movement, how it correlated to the music, and how she might interact through the crossing phrase work with the other performers, I realized that my complicated scheme worked. I'm not a fastidious planner and when the movement lined up well from a structural perspective, as I had hoped it would, I was thrilled.  (Here I also almost made the mistake of trying to incorporate the concept of a fugue state, probably over complicating things - but think about the similarities of the two, it would be fun to play with... next time.) How others try to create a movement fugue, I'm not sure, but I'd very interested to find out. 

Onwards.

Our new challenge as a group is continuing to hear the line you are dancing to, as you dance to it. I get the sense that my dancers are quite comfortable with the main theme and the overall flow of the phrases, but listening to all three parts at once while performing just to one is difficult, especially to capture the Bach-isms, and tiny differences between repetitions of ideas. Making the listening/dancing experience even harder, is that melodically this piece is all over the keyboard - the soprano and alto voices cross a lot, it's really chaotic and tricky to keep them separate while listening to both. That being said, each of my wonderful dancers is working, making clearer musical connections with every run and starting to bring their own sense of individuality into the fugue. 

I'm SO pleased with how things are coming along and can't wait to see where we are at in October, once we have the two other accompanying movements finalized (think a giant elastic band, artistic musical chairs, lots of frustration and maybe a stage selfie or two) and put this entire piece on the stage. (Spektrel tickets here!)

I've asked the dynamite Merli V. Guerra, Amy Mastrangelo and Brittany Lombardi (aka the liberally aforementioned dancers) to send me their responses to this post and the process so you can hear their perspectives. Stay tuned! Also, if you've had interaction with a fugue in any genre I'd love to hear about your own triumphs, struggles and quandaries. 

tags: dance, modern dance, bach, music, process, fugue, spektrel, composition, challenge
categories: Work in Progress
Tuesday 09.08.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

Is it Dance?

I think it's important to note that my lens is modern dance, sometimes shifting towards a postmodern preference (movement for movement's sake) and more frequently towards the dance theatre need for image-based expression. I am curious to see if this problem comes up in forms that focus on showcasing a technique. 

Everyone seems to know what dance 'is'. Any person walking down the street could offer a definition of dance and maybe even give an example of their best ballerina-esque pirouette, a loose interpretation of tap dancing, or (my least favorite, even as a sometimes-musical-theatre-choreographer) jazz hands. Merriam Webster is no help, suggesting that dance (noun) exists as "a series of movements that are done as music is playing; an act of dancing." The problem I'm considering this week, is when that need for definition gets in the way of actually watching dance. 

Just last year, a well-meaning reviewer came to a Luminarium show and puzzledly noted that while she enjoyed the performance, it seemed that the dancers barely scratched the surface of their technique in the material given. 

A few years prior I found myself sitting in a studio showing in Chelsea, after watching my Luminarium co-director and friend Merli Guerra show one of her dance films, a striking piece that integrated a live performer. An older man (who we seemed to hear from endlessly throughout the evening) was the first to shoot a hand in the air and to state, "I just don't think that's dance." There was a quiet smattering of opinion whispered through the crowd, and the discussion ended; shockingly no major objections from the NYC crowd.

Where are we going wrong in that audiences are needing to outwardly contest a work's genre, and in turn that classification/misclassification effects their consumption of the performance? I recently attended a showing's talkback where everyone was so eager to chime in (a good thing), but all shared the same anxious look in their eyes as they shared an interpretation of the work with its creator and asked if they were right (not a good thing). Why do some audiences truly need the affirmation that they 'got it'? What happens when there is nothing to get?

After some thought and reading many critical reception essays of some creative icons (Cunningham, Bausch, Cage, etc) I believe it's the inherent assumptions that allow anyone to define and recognize dance that trap us in rigid boundaries.  Preconceived notions of dance are frequently challenged in the modern dance setting, which can lead to an uncomfortable combination of frustration, confusion and maybe a little bit of fear in the average audience member.  Perhaps by seeking affirmation in a talkback a viewer is seeking to redeem themselves after a perceived dig to their intelligence (again, sometimes there is nothing to get), but wouldn't watching dance in this manner be exhausting - ala frantically searching for symbolism through the curriculum of a literature class, and missing the enjoyment of just reading the works?

What can we do to demystify modern dance and its sub-genres? How can we get audiences in our performances that are ready to openly receive what we have to share without clutching so tightly to what they consider as dance, and measuring the difference between the two? How do we provide a safe-feeling viewing experience that might house some unsettling content; to make everyone feel like they belong, if they are ready to receive, and that all experiences are valid? 

I've certainly been in an audience myself when there is a pre-show reminder that all experiences are 'correct' and important, there are no wrong answers, and at others where the creator provides an immense amount of program notes to (over?)-explain what viewers are about to see. Do we have other options, can we improve upon what we have?

While I certainly don't think the ultimate remedy to this problem is creating work with an audience's safe-zone as an absolute limit, I also don't mean to insinuate that the choreographer can do no wrong in fighting such an uphill battle.  In my opinion it's definitely the responsibility of the creator to make work that is as authentically embodied and thoughtfully crafted as can be - no shoddy workmanship - but that is another post for another day...

Thoughts?

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tags: dance, modern dance, postmodern dance, dance theatre, audience, theory, reception, open-mindedness, affirmation, grad school
categories: Topics for Discussion
Tuesday 08.25.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 12