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Things I know/Things I'm not entitled to know but I know anyways

Midnight on a Friday and I'm staring into a tiny ceramic dish in the kitchen holding three bobbypins, two quarters, a nickel, some incidental coffee grounds and a screw. I'm sure everyone has a vessel like this, and I can't remember the last time I wore the bobbypins. To my left is a letter that's not addressed to me, the magnetic pull is strong. My focus on the dish is belittled by my side eye on the letter, but to be honest I've already read it. 

How exhilarating it is to be a validated fly on the wall. Being mute but also unasked, all the while knowing the ending to the chapter or story in your bones. If I was a better writer I could've taken a close compositional guess at this letter years ago, but instead it's been lurking in the back of my brain, every now and then drifting into the present for contemplation. The time hadn't been right. 

I'm building a new duet where my primary twosome maintains gripping communication with each other while they are surrounded by observing bodies that don't get to engage, and I'm fairly sure this would be a moment akin to one of my silent observers. I've been struggling with the presence and tasks of the observers as their task is just to be present, making a sort of internal captain's log of their experience. This is the most difficult part as a creator of performance: importing enough sensation, cause and effect from this exact point in time into the work so that maybe my performers can find it, and maybe just maybe the audience members can pick up on the magic that's happening live. It's impossible to bottle experience, but perhaps possible to rediscover.  

In other thoughts, how great would it be to be a professional fly on the wall?

tags: composition, observation, Making work, Fly on the wall, Rambling, Duet, Words, Dance, latenight, observations, Validation
categories: Bits of life, Reflection & Exploration
Saturday 10.01.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 2
 

Roadtrip Dances: Smaller States, Faster Travel (7)

Monday, August 15

I underestimated the magnetic pull of familiarity and home on this last day of the car, as the desire to reach our destination swelled. Driving from Philadelphia through New Jersey, New York and Connecticut to reach Massachusetts was a drive I have done many times and the visual cues and mile markers seemed to push onwards instead of stimulating interest and a stop. I do feel that I did a bit of a disservice to my home area comfort zone, but at this time my brain was also incredibly saturated, swimming with thought from the Southern leg of my trip. The view from the inside of the car was familiar and didn't vary much, the same green deciduous trees lining highways with occasional and quick pockets of city. While this was a point of stress in Florida, when the landscape was straight and open, I felt snugly held by the leafy trees even if the scenery wasn't novel. 

During the last leg of the trip I focused on simple public performance, leaving myself open to observe any reactions. I completed a car dance while crossing the George Washington bridge (NY), and a dance based on observation of people encountered at a highway rest stop in New Jersey. Connecticut was especially rough as we got closer and closer to home, and I improvised on my impatience in a strip mall parking lot. There were a lot of people walking about at the rest stop and several individuals made eye contact but all kept walking. I wonder if they feel like the performance wasn’t for them, and that they couldn’t stop to watch (minus one unfortunate male cat-caller), or if that they were just feeling the same sort of homewards travel magnetism.  While affixing my head to the car and spinning about in the Connecticut parking lot, two older women were taken aback but not enough to linger. Perhaps that's a common occurrence in Connecticut.

View NY/NJ performance video here.  View Connecticut performance video here.

Excerpt from NJ/NY. Included some fiddling around before officially starting so I could share the really appreciative whistler-slash-#1 fan of impromptu art. Clip features some apathy, rest stop mentality, having to keep going, a slow mo tantrum I saw inside. Several drivers/pedestrians behind the camera looked while passing by, unlike the Florida rest stop. Grass was surprisingly clean. #newjersery #newyork #reststop #roadtrip #roadtripdances #travel #dance #danceeverywhere #grass #oilchange

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 18 likes

Showing signs of desperation and car confinement in a tiny excerpt from a CT strip mall. Two older women in a car behind us pretended not to notice but were very confused. #timetogohome #roadtrip #roadtripdances #connecticut #highway #parkinglot #rotate #carduet #stuck #stripmall

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 14 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, road trip, research, observation, improvisation, new jersey, new york, connecticut, massachusetts, home
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Wednesday 09.21.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Philadelphia (6)

Sunday, August 14-Monday, August 15

We got into Philadelphia late on Sunday night and had to leave fairly early on Monday morning, unfortunate, as I really like the city, but it also proved to be an excellent break after a difficult weekend.

After catching up with an old friend late into Sunday night, we woke up Monday morning to walk the city at the beginning of rush hour - strategic for encountering a lot of people, no? 

Philadelphia feels a lot like Boston, to me, in terms of its buildings, rush and history. It’s a grey city instead of a tan city, and even though I’ve only visited a few times it feels familiar. Perhaps spurred on by the good feelings of a visit with a dear friend, or the comfort of the home-like feel, I had the highest hopes for the most viewed public performance of the trip. This is where I would focus on the idea of performance, of being viewed, or so I thought. Situating myself right in the middle of Penn Square, against City Hall, the LOVE sculpture, public transportation, and the major rush of adults getting to work on time I began to move inspired by tall buildings, public spaces, the calm I felt within the bustle of a city. My audience strategy failed. Humorously no one that walked by batted an eyelid, and the experience began to circle comedy. At one point a woman passed in such close proximity that we could have made physical contact, but her resolve to stay focused on some spot on the distance was incredible. This sort of thing continued as I kept moving and even when I started to push my focus outwards as I moved, attempting eye contact, groups of people just a foot or two away seemed to not even notice my presence. Two men working in some sort of tourist booth did cheer me on from afar, perhaps because that's where they had to be and it was a break from the mundane? Thanks to them, however, as I truly started to think I'd mastered invisibility and they swiftly brought me back down to earth. 

As I continue thinking about the Philadelphia experience I would love to know if the majority of individuals actually noticed and just didn’t acknowledge what I was up to, or if passersby truly didn’t see it. Is there enough rogue art in Philly that it was the norm, or did it make people uncomfortable? Would sound have changed the response? Does context change anything; if I had performed during the Fringe Festival would that be more acceptable or classifiable to those walking by? Am I overthinking everything and people just don't really care that I'm atypically moving my body in public spaces? 

I left amused and satisfied. Someday I’ll get to do the Rocky steps.

View video from Philadelphia here. 

Excerpt from Philly, in which caffeine-free-me has a hard time making things happen at 8:30am. Playing with the height and established feel of such a city and the idea of finding just a tiny bit of wide open space. Really wanted to dance in the spontaneously spraying fountains in back but that would make for a wet car trip. Not sure who viewed this... No one commuting to work seemed to notice. Several curious homeless people and one homeless dog were stationed behind me far to my left, and two guys in some sort of tourist info booth were pumped and quite into it - thanks to them. (Some funny captured sound in this if you can deal with it.) #roadtripdances #roadtrip #improv #dance #danceeverywhere #lowkey #spiral #roll #philadelphia #philly #city #rushhour #goodmorning

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 25 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, road trip, dance, research, observation, improvisation, philadelphia, pennsylvania
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Thursday 09.15.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

Roadtrip Dances: Virginia and Maryland (5)

Sunday, August 14

We left Durham early on the morning of Sunday, August 14 as there were many stops to make en route to Philadelphia. Our first stop was Richmond, it was directly on our path, the capital of the state, and neither my companion or myself had been there, but yet again we encountered a ghost town. The vacancy of Richmond was probably exacerbated by temperatures in the high nineties, but also by the day being a Sunday, something I didn’t consider in advance even after the influx of religious billboards. We drove about, taking in the hot, dusty tan and taupe city, everything looking a bit run down and tired. Signage and fonts from decades past, lots of boarded up windows, very little noise and a hot breeze. I found a wide open intersection with large sidewalks for a performance and yet again performed to those who drove by and those who had to be out in the heat - a handful of homeless men.

To be completely candid, the rest of the Virginia experience was infuriating. I’m sure the state has some beautiful places and redeeming qualities, but my travel through didn’t encounter additional reasons to stop before it was necessary. After the failed stop in Richmond and finding ourselves almost out of gas we found an exit with a gas station and a myriad of fast food restaurants which were the apparent only option for sustenance on a Sunday. We decided a Subway was the best choice of the limited options, though I did conjure up a memory of a dance friend foraging on a performance trip, and as we entered the store we walked right into an intense fight over a dog trapped in a hot car, the dog’s family thinking nothing of their decision. The ignorance demonstrated in the back and forth argument was shocking. Mad for the poor dog (sadly there’s no law in Virginia protecting dogs locked in hot cars or I would've gone vigilante), mad about the ridiculous amount of propaganda splashed on anti-abortion billboards and hateful bumper stickers escorting us up the highway, it took me the entirety of a couple of hours of bumper to bumper traffic to cool down. Then we hit Baltimore.

Baltimore was the first location that made me realize how we were not just traveling through deserted Southeastern cities, but also across a sort of road map of the country’s major recent civil rights events. Thinking about the recent drop of charges in the Freddie Gray trial and trying to put that in the context of the city we were driving and walking through, my brain couldn’t really process much else of what I saw. At surface value I noticed a good amount of brick, taller buildings than previous cities, and lots of praise for the military. I still have some trivial curiosity regarding the popularity of crabs and wonder if anyone in the impoverished neighborhood that also houses Johns Hopkins Hospital could afford to go there. We spotted City Hall, a most ornate building, with green space and a series of fountains in front, two hidden parking spots, mostly abandoned on a Sunday afternoon besides a dozen or so homeless men sleeping on benches. I performed amidst the gardens and fountains, vacant city hall, many sleeping men. I’m not sure if anyone opened their eyes to take it in. I’m not sure if there would be any benefit to viewing what I did. It was just important to do, entering and leaving very quietly. We found a battered dead butterfly stuck in the windshield wiper of the car, adding to the somber feel of the afternoon.

It took getting to northern Maryland to sense the familiarity of the North just around the corner (down the highway), as the trees, highway structures and signage started feeling somewhat familiar. The Mason-Dixon line was palpable; I had several friends try to humorously suggest the shift would be obvious and I didn’t realize this would be somewhat true. When you travel around with an educator, she can tell you who even the obscure figures being commemorated through names of highways and historical sites are, leading to the realization that there are major differences in picking southern and northern important figures for such commemoration.

I can’t help but feel I should go back and find more positive experiences and beautiful sites, it feels like irresponsible reporting of the Southern East coast, but for now I think I need some time.

Richmond, Virginia video click here. Baltimore, Maryland video click here. 

Tiny excerpt from Richmond, VA. Literally no humans anywhere, except those that passed in cars, maybe because it was about 100 degrees. Heat + human confusion + lack of morale = a really lazy, smeary dance for an intersection. Could've been a hallucination but I think the fellow driving the flatbed was smiling... #roadtripdances #roadtrip #richmond #virginia #city #sidewalk #hot #dance #danceeverywhere #whereiseveryone

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 16 likes

Baltimore, MD felt a little somber more than anything at first. This is a tiny clip from a walking sketch. Couldn't resist the light and shadow and built in balance beam. #roadtripdances #roadtrip #notagymnast #walking #light #shadow #baltimore #maryland #dance #danceeverywhere 📸: @caitfay87

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 12 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, road trip, dance, modern dance, improvisation, research, observation, virginia, maryland
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Thursday 09.08.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman