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Digesting the Dance Experience via Gallim Dance's W H A L E

More often than not I prefer not to define dance (if you've been to my blog this is old news). I feel a certain depth of infuriation when well-meaning patrons and peers attribute the form to the pursuit of a specific technique or subjugate the entire genre with a quantified assessment of physicality in the work. The need to define pushes audience members to focus on ‘getting it’ instead of allowing them the permission to sit back and observe, letting their senses balance and guide their path through a performance. This is not to point fingers directly at audience members, but of my experiences observing US viewing-culture, it’s perhaps not so much an individual’s bad habits as an epidemic. This rigidity enables viewers to pass judgement on their perceived success of a work based on if they can identify and classify the movement happening on stage. It’s worth noting that this distaste for parameters and qualifiers is likely due to the fact that my own work in dance tends to stray from technical display, I’m more interested in building statements from physical bodies in whatever way I find most fitting, and my own making bias and a history of viewers offering classification in response to my work certainly contributes to my opinions.

What I feel confident to state about dance is that it is ephemeral. The dance I seek out burns brightest in its brief live form— when its creators and performers realize how deep a platform they have to deliver something incredibly fleeting. This brevity makes everything high-stakes; touch and presence and embodiment are either authentic or artificial. With this statement I don’t mean to discredit artifice, which is truly an exciting tool, but I’m more enamored with the challenge of creating authenticity onstage, a delightful albeit daunting task. Successful dance has moments I can relate to and experience, certain circumstances delivered and decoded straight through the gut. These moments lend themselves to performances I fall in love with and declare war upon, my admiration and hatred coming from these visceral interpretations. The simplified version of this: dance provokes feeling.

Every now and then, aforementioned frustrations taken into consideration, I find myself so unmistakably in the presence of dance that all I can do is bask in such a moment of clarity. Gallim Dance’s W H A L E (which I attended February 11 at the Institute of Contemporary Art/Boston) provided such a brilliantly clear moment, embodying dance and constantly provoking reaction over seventy brief and captivating minutes. Risking hypocrisy with such a definitive statement, as I sat and watched the performers dive into the piece I realized that dance is getting it done, doing the work (the it, intangible, and the work, in this case, not so much the steps but the actions prompted by these extracts of life and conjectures of how love, sex, and domesticity exist in day-to-day life). The company members regardless of shape, size, strength or sex picked each other up, threw each other about the stage, ran up each other's bodies and invested themselves in the very presence of the piece— the action was all at once daily routine and lavish display. Commitment to a central line of inquiry from conceptual, physical and aesthetic perspectives all led to the success of the work as a whole.

Created by Andrea Miller and her company and collaborators, W H A L E is self-described as utilizing “radical physical language and impulsive narrative pace to juxtapose love, sex and domesticity. This piece trails the human pursuit to love and be loved, and navigates the expectations, anxiety, and forgiveness surrounding this struggle through moments of emotional vulnerability, sensual abandonment, and spiritual tribulation.” The work’s aesthetic, captured through intense and specific movement vocabulary and simple visuals, centered around the imperfect and uncomfortable, specifically vulnerability, intimacy and attraction. Miller’s movement, based in the Gaga style and influenced by her time in Ohad Naharin’s Batsheva Ensemble, is radical indeed, a perfect vehicle for the work. While Gaga as a movement language is about listening to one’s internal impulses it goes far beyond somatic pleasure, displaying as the quirkiest output of physicality, sensation, and thought— perhaps because it doesn’t adhere to a classical genre despite being performed by highly trained bodies. This absolute freedom in movement enabled the performers to share not just their brilliant physicality but glimmers of their own life experiences, impulses and instinctual reactions. Limbs moved as if they were suddenly animated by electricity, upper and lower bodies moved independently of each other in relation to the commands of the core, gestures of all sizes erupted from fingers, faces, and posture. I can’t imagine this work utilizing any other vocabulary and holding on to its ability to explore relationship to such depth.

Movement vocabulary led to various forms of partnering, and all performed physicality came directly back to experienced relationship, impressive, considering the vast and varied aspects of connection found in the work. In the first few moments of the piece, a performer ran up another performer’s body. It was such a straight forward aggression— the soles of one’s flat bare feet thudding up the surface of another’s body— and it was thrilling and reminiscent of the brutal aggressions one only has with someone that they hold incredibly close. A bit later a duet brought me to tears; Miller didn’t prescribe any sort of overt narrative here, but the performers fluctuated between such tender and vigorous treatment of each other’s bodies and trust that the moment couldn’t resist providing a sense of voyeuristic intimacy. Later, a woman ran infinite circles around a male performer only breaking her path to strike her partner again and again with body and firsts. Watching this segment transported me to earlier in the day where I was beyond frustrated with my own partner and couldn’t help the endless verbal jabs that I knew wouldn’t help the situation in the long run— here it was in physical form. Aggressive, tender, and ridiculous, every moment of partnering, duet and ensemble work reminded me of how there are some physical aspects of ourselves that only the most intimate partner will ever see. Beyond sex and physical intimacy, the obvious examples, a partner sees the ridiculous, absurd, embarrassing and silly physical successes and fails that are not often performed to one’s closest circle of family and friends. The physicality was so effective at reaching inside a viewer to point to our own stored memories that the work as a whole felt more personal an experience than a performance.

Aside from its brilliant movement, W H A L E’s visual and auditory ideas merged familiar Gallim Dance aesthetic—for example neutral lighting interspersed with vivid broad color washes, play with footlight and multi-dimensional shadow, a brilliant sound score blending percussion, pop music, live vocals and electronic sound— with the effective use of nudity and scenic design in the form of a large tarp.  Since vulnerability is a massive component of love, sex and relationship I expected it to be explored throughout the work, but I was surprised to see it not just accomplished through performance but through such aesthetic as simple plastic sheeting as the sole scenic element. The second half of the first act featured a naked man both dancing solo and amidst three clothed peers. He danced vigorously by himself across the space and throughout the milky-white slightly translucent tarp that came to life with light and almost swallowed the man up like a cloud, despite its constant plasticky rustling. In the quartet work he tried to nestle himself into the tight formations of his fellow performers, who continuously seemed to squeeze him out of the group, poignant given his bare state. His sweaty body, after such athleticism, and proximity to the other performers asked us to evaluate comfort zone, to confront that intimacy isn’t always clean and pretty. Beyond what was happening onstage, I found myself tuning in to those sitting around me; who was comfortable, who started to squirm or question where they placed their gaze? The man sitting next to me reached for his female partner’s hand. From across the room I heard a quiet giggle. The woman in front of me tensed up and didn’t know where to look. We revisited naked human bodies at the end of the second act, when each performer meditatively tumbled across the stage in various states of undress, each in an invisible lane, before quickly sprinting for clothes as they began to sing Nat King Cole’s ‘L-O-V-E’ and find space for bows. In this instance vulnerability gave way to humor, another aesthetic choice for another discussion.

While still digesting W H A L E a few days post-show, I was disappointed to read a handful of mediocre reviews in Boston-area papers, amidst what feels like a local “make art literal again” movement.  I absolutely believe each and every viewer should have a different experience, art is thrilling because of its endless varietals. The critical responses to the show, however, seemed to discredit its lack of dance and dance within developed concept which, love or hate what Gallim Dance presented, just wasn’t the case. What I extract from this viewing experience is support for my theory that the need to label and define work takes away from the viewing experience. When we throw away trepidations about what defines a genre and what the rules for the stage space are, we get work as brilliant as Gallim Dance’s W H A L E. I think those individuals that focused on unidentifiable/nontraditional movement vocabulary, verbalizing dancers, and nudity, had a far inferior viewing experience than that of those who simply took in a highly visual and articulate statement on relationship.

tags: dance, contemporary dance, modern dance, postmodern dance, whale, gallim dance, andrea miller, boston, boston dance, critical response
categories: Topics for Discussion, Reflection & Exploration
Wednesday 04.26.17
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Pavlov Must've Loved a Kickline

There’s a good chance I might be the most jaded sometimes-musical-theater- choreographer in the world. While most of my time is spent exploring the depths of experimental concert dance forms, I regularly take on conventional theater jobs where I spend a few months at a time eschewing ‘jazz hands’ —outside of Fosse, god of brilliant physical weirdness— and kicklines.

(Let's pause here for a moment to say that I love all types of theater and the gigs that I get, this is mostly me not understanding the mass appeal and cultural adoption of things like "sparkle fingers"...)

Earlier this fall I was offered a ticket to a Sondheim musical and somewhere in the midst of the second act the actors geared up for, yes, a kickline, and the gentleman sitting behind me responded with a loud gasp and an immediate burst of applause in advance; not a leg had extended before he was so moved. Instead of my usual dose of snark I tried to watch with an open mind. Nine adults stood shoulder to shoulder, put their arms around each other’s backs, and kicked their legs to ninety degrees. Sure, it was fairly in sync, but honestly it wasn’t a feat that required loads of athleticism or skill, and yet by the time they had finished sixteen kicks the majority of the audience was vigorously applauding the event. Perhaps they didn’t realize that they could all be taught to do the same in less than ten minutes. (Disclaimer: Maybe not with beautifully pointed feet and straight legs, but the mechanics would be be there...)

What on earth is it about a kickline that can cause such a Pavlovian response in audience members? Is it just an extreme form of unison dancing? And then going one step further, what is about unison dancing that audiences can’t get enough of? It seems the average human is quite excited by multiple performers doing the exact same thing at the same time. I'm thinking back to one of the contemporary dance concerts I saw this fall, in addition to the musical, and as I eavesdropped on my fellow audience members I heard many compliments and comments about ‘how together’ the group was. The dancers demonstrated impressive, almost atypical physicality, and yet the audience primarily noticed that they performed in sync with one another. 

Simultaneously the least and most important research to embark on, I felt the need to find the impetus behind movement performed in unison on the contemporary stage. In the military and in marching bands, two examples of groups that utilize perfect synchronization, movement is for function and display, the body a carrier for moving across space in proximity to other bodies. In many global and social forms dances are performed in sync as a cultural tradition, everyone dances to experience the sensation of movement and for the sake of community ritual, but here there is also room for personal expression through movement. Moving to performative venues, the Rockettes and professional dance teams utilize precision unison, and I feel that the point in these forms is an amount of shock value that intrigues audiences through excess. Where my search has turned cold is why audiences that purposefully attend concert dance and theater still find some excitement with unison movement when it is likely that there is so much more meaning and infinite individual movement possibility. Why do we stop at the hypothetical kickline among transformations, relationships, physicality, and deep thought? Despite a couple hours on the internet searching for answers I’ve run dry of proven information and am left with a handful of my own guesses.

 

tags: kickline, pavlov, unison, theatre, dance, musical theatre, jazz hands, understanding, audience
categories: Topics for Discussion
Friday 12.02.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Live Free or Die (8)

Preparing like an Olympic diver in New Hampshire dusk, really just squaring my toes to an invisible line in the grass. The grass is anything but lush, clunky sandy anthills spanning the distance between brittle stalks of formerly-green blades - it’s even sharper at the bottom. I fill my lungs, feeling foolish and amused as Russell stands all-too-close, recording with one of our phones. Observations before I depart, despite and in accordance with my attempts to be present: my mom standing in a golden-lit window, unaware and accepting of my strange backyard actions while washing dishes from the hissing faucet before dinner, the familiar pace of my dad’s dense footsteps before the creak of the basement door hinges. All of it is familiar; being ridiculous in the backyard with my now-husband, the noises created by my parents, an infrequent bark in the distance, the slope of the hill.

Lowering my body towards the ground, letting body weight take over, forcefully rolling down what used to look like a mountain. I’m aware of the edges of my body, the outsides of my arms striking the dirt over and over again, just like the small tidal wave my sister created when she burst our small pool in the mid-90s. Rolling out of my tumble at the bottom of the hill, parts of my body still pounding from the inside out, I walk out of the performance, smooth dust from my dress, and join everyone for dinner.

View full video here. 

A small slice of New Hampshire movement exploration as I try to finish up #roadtripdances for now (MA & RI I'm still coming for ya). While not so much a public site I explored lots of physicality and rolling on this hill as a younger human (mainly because it's in my childhood home backyard). Haven't rolled down it in about 15 years and it felt great. 📸: @russellholman who held all his giggling til the end. What a pro. #roadtrip #newhampshire #hill #tumble #roll #jillcametumblingafter #trees #didntrollintothebrook #velocity #childhoodmemories #dance #danceeverywhere

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 11 likes

tags: dance, roadtrip, roadtrip dances, road trip, new hampshire, hill, exploration, outside, thinking about dance
categories: Roadtrip Dances, Road Trip, Bits of life
Monday 10.24.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Philadelphia (6)

Sunday, August 14-Monday, August 15

We got into Philadelphia late on Sunday night and had to leave fairly early on Monday morning, unfortunate, as I really like the city, but it also proved to be an excellent break after a difficult weekend.

After catching up with an old friend late into Sunday night, we woke up Monday morning to walk the city at the beginning of rush hour - strategic for encountering a lot of people, no? 

Philadelphia feels a lot like Boston, to me, in terms of its buildings, rush and history. It’s a grey city instead of a tan city, and even though I’ve only visited a few times it feels familiar. Perhaps spurred on by the good feelings of a visit with a dear friend, or the comfort of the home-like feel, I had the highest hopes for the most viewed public performance of the trip. This is where I would focus on the idea of performance, of being viewed, or so I thought. Situating myself right in the middle of Penn Square, against City Hall, the LOVE sculpture, public transportation, and the major rush of adults getting to work on time I began to move inspired by tall buildings, public spaces, the calm I felt within the bustle of a city. My audience strategy failed. Humorously no one that walked by batted an eyelid, and the experience began to circle comedy. At one point a woman passed in such close proximity that we could have made physical contact, but her resolve to stay focused on some spot on the distance was incredible. This sort of thing continued as I kept moving and even when I started to push my focus outwards as I moved, attempting eye contact, groups of people just a foot or two away seemed to not even notice my presence. Two men working in some sort of tourist booth did cheer me on from afar, perhaps because that's where they had to be and it was a break from the mundane? Thanks to them, however, as I truly started to think I'd mastered invisibility and they swiftly brought me back down to earth. 

As I continue thinking about the Philadelphia experience I would love to know if the majority of individuals actually noticed and just didn’t acknowledge what I was up to, or if passersby truly didn’t see it. Is there enough rogue art in Philly that it was the norm, or did it make people uncomfortable? Would sound have changed the response? Does context change anything; if I had performed during the Fringe Festival would that be more acceptable or classifiable to those walking by? Am I overthinking everything and people just don't really care that I'm atypically moving my body in public spaces? 

I left amused and satisfied. Someday I’ll get to do the Rocky steps.

View video from Philadelphia here. 

Excerpt from Philly, in which caffeine-free-me has a hard time making things happen at 8:30am. Playing with the height and established feel of such a city and the idea of finding just a tiny bit of wide open space. Really wanted to dance in the spontaneously spraying fountains in back but that would make for a wet car trip. Not sure who viewed this... No one commuting to work seemed to notice. Several curious homeless people and one homeless dog were stationed behind me far to my left, and two guys in some sort of tourist info booth were pumped and quite into it - thanks to them. (Some funny captured sound in this if you can deal with it.) #roadtripdances #roadtrip #improv #dance #danceeverywhere #lowkey #spiral #roll #philadelphia #philly #city #rushhour #goodmorning

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 25 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, road trip, dance, research, observation, improvisation, philadelphia, pennsylvania
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Thursday 09.15.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

Roadtrip Dances: Virginia and Maryland (5)

Sunday, August 14

We left Durham early on the morning of Sunday, August 14 as there were many stops to make en route to Philadelphia. Our first stop was Richmond, it was directly on our path, the capital of the state, and neither my companion or myself had been there, but yet again we encountered a ghost town. The vacancy of Richmond was probably exacerbated by temperatures in the high nineties, but also by the day being a Sunday, something I didn’t consider in advance even after the influx of religious billboards. We drove about, taking in the hot, dusty tan and taupe city, everything looking a bit run down and tired. Signage and fonts from decades past, lots of boarded up windows, very little noise and a hot breeze. I found a wide open intersection with large sidewalks for a performance and yet again performed to those who drove by and those who had to be out in the heat - a handful of homeless men.

To be completely candid, the rest of the Virginia experience was infuriating. I’m sure the state has some beautiful places and redeeming qualities, but my travel through didn’t encounter additional reasons to stop before it was necessary. After the failed stop in Richmond and finding ourselves almost out of gas we found an exit with a gas station and a myriad of fast food restaurants which were the apparent only option for sustenance on a Sunday. We decided a Subway was the best choice of the limited options, though I did conjure up a memory of a dance friend foraging on a performance trip, and as we entered the store we walked right into an intense fight over a dog trapped in a hot car, the dog’s family thinking nothing of their decision. The ignorance demonstrated in the back and forth argument was shocking. Mad for the poor dog (sadly there’s no law in Virginia protecting dogs locked in hot cars or I would've gone vigilante), mad about the ridiculous amount of propaganda splashed on anti-abortion billboards and hateful bumper stickers escorting us up the highway, it took me the entirety of a couple of hours of bumper to bumper traffic to cool down. Then we hit Baltimore.

Baltimore was the first location that made me realize how we were not just traveling through deserted Southeastern cities, but also across a sort of road map of the country’s major recent civil rights events. Thinking about the recent drop of charges in the Freddie Gray trial and trying to put that in the context of the city we were driving and walking through, my brain couldn’t really process much else of what I saw. At surface value I noticed a good amount of brick, taller buildings than previous cities, and lots of praise for the military. I still have some trivial curiosity regarding the popularity of crabs and wonder if anyone in the impoverished neighborhood that also houses Johns Hopkins Hospital could afford to go there. We spotted City Hall, a most ornate building, with green space and a series of fountains in front, two hidden parking spots, mostly abandoned on a Sunday afternoon besides a dozen or so homeless men sleeping on benches. I performed amidst the gardens and fountains, vacant city hall, many sleeping men. I’m not sure if anyone opened their eyes to take it in. I’m not sure if there would be any benefit to viewing what I did. It was just important to do, entering and leaving very quietly. We found a battered dead butterfly stuck in the windshield wiper of the car, adding to the somber feel of the afternoon.

It took getting to northern Maryland to sense the familiarity of the North just around the corner (down the highway), as the trees, highway structures and signage started feeling somewhat familiar. The Mason-Dixon line was palpable; I had several friends try to humorously suggest the shift would be obvious and I didn’t realize this would be somewhat true. When you travel around with an educator, she can tell you who even the obscure figures being commemorated through names of highways and historical sites are, leading to the realization that there are major differences in picking southern and northern important figures for such commemoration.

I can’t help but feel I should go back and find more positive experiences and beautiful sites, it feels like irresponsible reporting of the Southern East coast, but for now I think I need some time.

Richmond, Virginia video click here. Baltimore, Maryland video click here. 

Tiny excerpt from Richmond, VA. Literally no humans anywhere, except those that passed in cars, maybe because it was about 100 degrees. Heat + human confusion + lack of morale = a really lazy, smeary dance for an intersection. Could've been a hallucination but I think the fellow driving the flatbed was smiling... #roadtripdances #roadtrip #richmond #virginia #city #sidewalk #hot #dance #danceeverywhere #whereiseveryone

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 16 likes

Baltimore, MD felt a little somber more than anything at first. This is a tiny clip from a walking sketch. Couldn't resist the light and shadow and built in balance beam. #roadtripdances #roadtrip #notagymnast #walking #light #shadow #baltimore #maryland #dance #danceeverywhere 📸: @caitfay87

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 12 likes

tags: roadtrip dances, road trip, dance, modern dance, improvisation, research, observation, virginia, maryland
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Thursday 09.08.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: From One Carolina to Another (4)

Saturday, August 13

We left Charleston after a final explore on Saturday, August 13 and started our drive to Durham, North Carolina. The drive was a reasonable five hours, at least in comparison to the day before, and accompanied by nearly 70 wacky and fairly insensitive billboards for an aging tourist attraction called ‘Pedro’s South of the Border’ as we progressed up the highway. Billboards advertising pralines and canned goods, okra, mainly, started tapering off as we entered the northern of the Carolinas. While Durham was brand new to me, a friend and fellow MFA candidate had been singing its praises since they day we met (shout out to Amy Unell who also provided an unbelievably comprehensive list of Durham attributes and took us on a killer tour of Duke the next morning), and I was excited to see what we could fit into a condensed stop. 

Happy to be out of the car by late afternoon we walked for hours by indulging our curiosity all over the city, trying to make some sense of the layout and mostly failing. Durham sprawls, it is wide open, there is a lot of diversity in building heights, minimal signage, and what isn’t brick is very light stone.  It’s an excellent city for getting lost and the experiences that come from wandering without purpose; at one point we walked into a cupcake shop's birthday party and were welcomed to stay (southern hospitality is definitely a thing). Yet again it was incredibly hot outside, temperatures were in the high nineties with no sign of breeze, and the only signs of city life were a long line snaking down the block outside an ice cream shop that didn’t pop up until after dark, a trickle of individuals headed into a Lyle Lovett concert at Durham Performing Arts Center and the distant roar of a large group of people at a minor league Durham Bulls baseball game. Perhaps that’s where everyone was.

I had several thoughts wander through my head as we traveled and took in our surroundings. In efforts to understand the prevalence of bulls everywhere we stumbled upon the history of old tobacco and wandered through the converted tobacco buildings. I am torn with how intrigued I was with the old brick buildings and compounds, despite their origin in the needs of a terrible industry, but their history was alive and I couldn't help but feel a sort of attraction to the old brick buildings. Towards the end of the evening we were approached by a homeless man in a three piece suit and hat asking for money. I was taken by surprise both by his level of dress and the amount of clothing in relation to the extreme heat, but remembered that the man we encountered in Charleston asking for money was also fairly formally dressed. I’m very curious about this trend, but didn’t feel that it was my place to ask about his attire out of the blue. The next morning, after some incredible avocado toast that deserves special mention, Amy and her pup Luna drove us around Duke. As we saw some of the more iconic sites of the University, the Duke chapel among other landmarks, I wondered about the aesthetic and function of the college town. It felt so much like Amherst in a Southern way, perhaps there's a secret formula for developing such towns. Additionally, Durham felt fairly liberal and I know a lot of fantastic open-minded individuals that live or lived in North Carolina. How do such small liberal pockets easily exist in a state that can otherwise pass such atrocities as HB2 (the bathroom bill)? I collected these thoughts, questions and observations, unable to dive in to any of them with brain that was rapidly becoming saturated, and hope to revisit them as I continue breaking down my travels.

Durham was where I had one of my most meaningful connections and performance experiences of the entire trip. Amidst our long walk all over the city we found a mural in an empty lot. Sitting across the lot, staring into the mural, was a man in ripped, dirty clothing, speaking to himself, who identified himself as homeless. I was interested in the swoopy simple lines on the mural as a sort of dance language, and asked if it would be ok if I filmed a quick dance at the site. As I performed movement that was awkward and clunky as I tried to move in heat and sandals on gravel, he sat rapt by my improvisation. Upon finishing he enthusiastically expressed how much he enjoyed the impromptu performance. I was excited by the fact that perhaps I enhanced someone’s day-to-day experience with my project. This felt like progress, despite not having specifically defined sub-goals to accomplish during the trip. 

For video click here.

Adding some invisible ink to this Durham, NC mural with its hand-sized line drawings. Isolation, getting stuck, dead ends, swirl. Our friend at the very end wouldn't give his name, but was down with being part of the video and viewing experience and expressed excitement, intrigue and a little confusion afterwards. #roadtripdances #roadtrip #durham #northcarolina #mural #improv #invisibleink #dance #danceeverywhere #streetart #literally

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tags: roadtrip dances, modern dance, improvisation, observations, dance, north carolina, research, experiments, durham, road trip
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Tuesday 09.06.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Charleston, South Carolina (3)

Friday, August 12-Saturday, August 13

At about 8pm on Friday night I found myself processing the day by standing on my tiptoes in the middle of a swimming pool at the back of a parking lot in Charleston, my face at the level of pedestrians’ feet as they walked down the cobblestoned sidewalks. For the first twenty minutes of precarious balance I was accompanied by a man with a cigar; we didn’t make eye contact, a sort of performance in itself. As durational things often are, there was something soothing and meditative about standing on my toes in neck-deep water and slowly swirling my arms back and forth in the water to maintain balance, letting my mind wander. At least it was until a gang of bats came out and started dive bombing the surface of the water, ending my solitude and thinking.

Charleston is a beautiful city, it looks almost as if Boston’s Beacon Hill neighborhood uprooted itself and went on a tropical vacation - Federal-style architecture amidst palm trees and sweltering heat. Sweltering heat, I'm assuming, led to the lack of other people in Charleston which was quite strange. In what seemed like it would be a fairly touristy area (my travel companion Caty had been there before and reported packed streets) we saw just a trickle of human life. This did make it a great evening for exploring as we picked a nearby deserted street at random and walked it until it ended, at that point choosing the next street. Wandering at its best, accompanied by the incessant chirping of cicadas. I found my body easily adapting to the slow pace of the city, perhaps it was the humid heat in the high nineties. Shedding my sidewalk-racer inner Bostonian reminded me of the time I took an hour to walk down a street in seacoast Maine, heightening my ability to actually see, but in Charleston I saw sneaky messages inscribed in a smooth-barked tree, a hidden cemetery, locals sizing up tourists before manners provoked a smile, and tons of iron work. I wonder if the multitude of ornate iron gates and shutters on townhouse windows played into the sense of modesty I felt - women I passed on the street, while stylishly dressed, were quite covered up for extreme heat - or the idea of keeping others out.

The next morning, Saturday August 13, I performed in Washington Square. The park is frequented by regular tour groups, I felt that I had a chance for my tiny performance to be observed in this vacant city, and also it was inspiringly filled with gorgeous live oak trees, moss breathily dangling from branches. It was a fun performance for me but oddly everyone that stopped by as part of the tour seemed to look away, as if Southern manners provided me a bit of modesty for my strange park outburst. One very well-dressed homeless man lingered, perhaps he watched my movement exploration.

What left me unsettled about Charleston was that it felt like going to Oz. Inside its historic perimeter is a lot of beauty, calm and Southern sweetness, but it felt somewhat like a facade. We visited in the middle of Charleston Pride, and neither saw or heard a single sign that Pride was underway until encountering two decorated twenty-somethings in a Starbucks as an older man heckled their efforts. I’ve never been to the South and the blatant differences in Civil War and civil rights viewpoints from my education, and Northern upbringing definitely made for some culture shock. In Charleston I performed in a park situated near a slave market-turned-museum, and we walked past the site where a maniac tried to start a race war by shooting nine people in a church just last year. A short amount of time after we drove out of the well-off city we were looking at serious poverty, sites of education crises (not to mention the occasional Confederate flag which, history and free speech aside, is nauseating to look at). Income inequity obviously exists in the North, it runs rampant in the Boston area, but maybe it takes seeing something elsewhere to be fully aware of it or to take action in the place you call home. 

Taking these glimpses of a new part of America into my thoughts and sitting with the discontent, while also recognizing the great exploration, food and scenery and simmering on my performance experience, I spent the majority of the drive to Durham, North Carolina with a very full brain. 

For video click here. 

Excerpt from a distraction-packed convo with GWashington on the topic of gorgeous Spanish moss hanging in the live oak trees. (Hair plays the role of moss.) Partially viewed by three meandering tour groups, a homeless man, a couple of passing tired horses pulling tourists... fully viewed by the filming @caitfay87 ! #roadtripdances #roadtrip #charleston #southcarolina #dance #danceeverywhere #georgewashington #greenery #liveoak #trees #tourists #improv

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tags: roadtrip dances, roadtrip, dance, modern dance, performance, performing, south carolina, charleston, wandering
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Friday 09.02.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Roadtrip Dances: Why and a False Start (1)

There were many reasons why I decided to take on a series of road trip dances up the East coast beyond the fact that I needed a practicum project for grad school and that a close friend needed to get her car up to Boston. There is so much of this country that I haven't observed with my own eyes and as a US-based artist making work that speaks to our culture I felt this was important. As a human being, too, art-aside if one can separate, I wanted to have a chance to examine the coast I live on; how do various aspects of the South compare to my lovely little pocket of the Northeast, would I feel a distinct shift in attitude, behaviors, reception, architecture - hell - fast food chains? Being quite curious about the consumption of art and the various shades of willingness to participate I wondered who would stop to view my tiny performances and how would they view and possibly engage.  Finally, I struggle with the idea of myself as a performing body. I love to dance and to explore my physicality, constantly am immersed in making work to set on others, enjoy the discreetly performative act of teaching, and yet I have only recently passed the point of 'hating' the act of performance. Could I complete a project based on the caveat that I had to publicly demonstrate something I haven't quite figured out?

Slightly anxious about the latter reason, having arrived in Southern Florida, I found it difficult to let go of the marginal amount of stress surrounding the performative goals I had set for myself. Funny, because there was no pressure to 'make something' - not that that's ever really a stressor - I'd decided to move in an improvisational and perhaps site-influenced manner. It was the act of being watched with no safety net of others around me; if there was any sort of audience it would be a deliberate audience, choosing to watch yours truly as likely the only person doing strange things in public at the time.

Considering the fact that people probably watch me do very weird things every day (I've got a number of odd habits and methods and tendencies), I gave in a bit, giving myself permission to do just one invisible dance while sitting in the airport waiting for a ride. An excerpt of it is below. I was passed by a family, an airport worker driving a woman through the terminal, a flight crew, and a horde of businesspeople and no one was wise to what I was doing. The fact that it was a secret was exciting. While this was completely not the purpose of my trip, a false start of sorts, it gave me just enough momentum and amusement to combat my silly worries and carry on with the project.

Also, while not opposed to nudity in performance, a copious application of spandex (aka bike shorts) was adhered to in each of these videos. Dance is just crotchy. Get over it. 

For video click here. 

Excerpt from an attempt at a completely anonymous/invisible/overlookable (even headless) performance at an airport in Florida, pre road-trip, exactly one week ago. Also, don't worry: bike shorts. Also-also, excuse my lumpy knees. This was me allowing myself not to be seen in front of random people before an entire trip of busting a move in public. #airport #danceeverywhere #invisible #anonymous #headless #roadtrip #hands #shhh #backgroundnoise #comfortzone #dancelife #roadtripdances

See this Instagram video by @kholman * 16 likes

tags: dance, airport, improv, improvisation, road trip, roadtrip dances, knees, invisible, performing
categories: Roadtrip Dances
Wednesday 08.24.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Garden: an exploration into video

As a professional artist-turned-grad-student I've realized that a huge part of my practice is finding the balance between ability, passion, and permission in creative work. Knowing your strengths and weaknesses is equally important to taking risks, taking on challenge, and letting excitement lead the way. Another post for another day. 

I recently took on a passion project when Mali Sastri (Jaggery) bestowed upon me the honor of making a music video for the band's gorgeous song Garden. While I hadn't previously worked on video, excepting a small amount of commercial work, I had wanted to for some time... especially growing up as a music video junkie.  I didn't originally intend on editing the piece myself, but as I immersed in the project there was a sort of beauty in the consistency of allowing my vision to organically take control of each aspect as I learned about the piece as a whole and what it needed to say. I'm beyond grateful to have so many wonderfully understanding producers in my life, this time Mali, that allow me to work fairly autonomously and fully trust my process, and enhancing my practice by discovering the power and use of dance for camera has been incredible.

This wasn't meant to be a post about process, so excuse the jump in flow. I recently rediscovered the pages in my notebook (below) with some very early and rough Garden sketches. One of my many methods in musing on new work is to have a seriously meditative drawing session. I'm by no means a visual artist and a rarely share my sketches as I wouldn't want them misinterpreted as product when they're simply part of my process, but this time around I can't help it. Below are the pages I sketched across while listening to the song on repeat. Further below is a gallery with film stills from the footage I shot, seriously representative of the sketches! What makes this exciting to me is that I didn't look back at the sketches after my initial session of doodling imagery, my fairly regular process. There was at least a month between drawing and filming, another chunk of time between extracting footage from the camera and starting to organize and edit, and yet there are so many consistencies in the images from my notebook and the film stills. Cool! (Or maybe I'm just geeking out...)

Above, sketches from early in the process. Below, an assortment of similar film stills. Consistency!

Above, sketches from early in the process. Below, an assortment of similar film stills. Consistency!

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I might be the only individual that's taken by the similarity in this bank of images, I think because it's rare for me to not have a thought continuously morph and evolve as I create. Sure, while creating the movement I learned more about what the piece needed to be, and sure, while filming and editing more of the subtle story began to dictate itself, but my original bank of imagery held up throughout. I think this song, or my relationship to it and interpretation of it, has been clearly understood from the start. 

The best news? The video premieres tomorrow! Join us at OBERON for Jaggery's Org: Black and White Ball at 8pm in Harvard Square for live performances, incredible music, and of course the Garden video debut. 

Photos and video feature Luminarium's Jessica Chang, Melenie Diarbekirian, Katie McGrail, Merli V. Guerra and Alison McHorney. 

tags: dance, video, dance for camera, boston, jaggery, music video, sketches, sketch, notes, notebook, images, imagery, opportunity
categories: Reflection & Exploration
Thursday 07.28.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Dancing in public, the Kardashians, late night discontent

True confession.

I am writing a progress report for grad school (yes, at 1am a few days before its due date - I have a hard time tearing myself away from the actual work and studies to actually document my learning), and I'm watching my first ever episode of Keeping up with the Kardashians. I deserve every cringe and nose wrinkle that might've just rippled across your face. To be fair, I need background noise to write and if I turn on something interesting I'll watch or listen to it instead of working. 

Anyways.

The point of this admission is that I tuned in for a split second while grabbing tea, when two of them were discussing an upcoming appearance on Ellen DeGeneres' talk show and the fact that they might have to dance as they entered the show. They were downright mortified by the idea of having to dance. Mortified! Dancing is something the human race/human body has known how to do since before we were homo sapiens (don't fact check my late night rants), and here are these uber-privileged millionaire broads with every resource in the world at their fingertips... too scared to dance. This is amusing; it connotes that there's a 'wrong' way to dance, that there is some sort of way one can follow the impulses of their body to music that is inherently unacceptable in the eyes of society. Unfortunately this mortal fear doesn't just plague the Kardashians, but also targets some wedding guests, club goers, high school dance goers, audience members asked to participate and many more.  Sad! Sure, the US (and some of Europe, to an extent) doesn't have the cultural dance traditions and history of Africa, Asia and South America, but can we really not find pleasure in moving our bodies authentically, regardless of what it looks like? Where do the unfortunate roots of "step-touch to the beat with very little upper body involvement" trace back to... who was the jerk that declared that as the social dance movement aesthetic of the US? 

Food for thought.

Do me a favor, at least go have a moment of dance glory (in private, if you must) in my honor.

Source: https://medium.com/@kaholman/dancing-in-pu...
tags: awkward, ellen degeneres, scared, self conscious, traditions, culture, dance, true confession, kardashians
categories: Topics for Discussion, Bits of life
Thursday 05.05.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 2
 

Guest Post: Rethinking Q & As

A Note from Kim: Last fall I wrote a blog post regarding dance audiences' wariness of 'understanding' a modern dance performance instead of just sitting back, taking it in, and discussing genuinely without feeling the need to 'get it right'. Read the original post here. In my ramblings on how to remedy this issue I forgot about a major tool... Monkeyhouse's SPORKS (this will make sense if you keep reading), which so brilliantly and humanly ease audiences into talking about dance. Karen Krolak has graciously contributed the following entry to explain her monkey-methods for the betterment of dance viewers everywhere, and I'm grateful for her kind reminder that we as artists can help our audiences feel comfortable and get involved. Don't forget to share your thoughts post-reading!

Rethinking Q & As

By Karen Krolak

Leading a SPORK after Luminarium’s Spektrel at the Multicultural Arts Center. I am the one with the spider fascinator on. Goofy headwear also helps make the conversation less intimidating.  (Photo by Jason Ries)

Leading a SPORK after Luminarium’s Spektrel at the Multicultural Arts Center. I am the one with the spider fascinator on. Goofy headwear also helps make the conversation less intimidating.  (Photo by Jason Ries)

Before Monkeyhouse’s tour in 2001, my dear friend Fred, a family therapist, suggested that Monkeyhouse organized regular company meetings to discuss problems of life on the road. Each person who brought a complaint, however, had to also bring at least two ideas for how to improve this problem. It was a helpful strategy that lowered the tension level in the van. Oddly enough, it is also how I discovered that everyone went to sleep much earlier if they put me in a separate room…but I digress.

One of the things that artists and audiences frequently bemoan is the post show Q & A. Raise your hand if you have ever been to one that has felt awkward, stilted, or just plain uninformative.

Exactly.

While it could be easy to simply stop attending/hosting Q & As, they can provide necessary insight for both the artist and the audience. Especially now that the number of dance writers is decreasing at newspapers and magazines, these dialogues become even more valuable when done productively.

So in the spirit of Fred’s wisdom, Monkeyhouse began brainstorming about how to improve the Q and A process. We began by renaming our events as SPORKS -forking out questions and stirring up conversations about choreography. This may seem like a small detail but reframing the experience to be about questions and not answers made a huge difference for getting people on both sides to relax a bit more. Nobody is seen as the all knowing expert. Audience members no longer feel ignorant. Artists no longer bear the onus of being able to answer every question thrown at them.

Second, we invite someone to be the moderator. By having someone begin the questions, you do not have to wait for a brave soul to finally speak up. It also gives the artist some reassurance that the first question will not attack their creation. In a best case scenario, the conversation quickly spreads to comments and questions from both sides and the moderator can recede a bit. I love it when audience members begin debating ideas at our SPORKS. Even if that does not happen, however, the moderator can keep people chatting and avoid those pregnant pauses where everyone just stares expectantly at each other.

In choosing our moderators, we look for people who are curious, humble and naturally smile a lot. This last quality may sound frivolous but smiling at people as you ask questions can help open them up. Russell Holman, host of Luminarium’s Backlight Boston, is an excellent moderator by the by if you are ever looking for someone.

It helps tremendously if the first couple of questions encourage the artist to tell a story about their process or about their background. Not only does this prevent people from giving one word answers but it also humanizes the artist. In turn, we find that the audience tends to respond with more supportive questions rather than with harsh criticisms or off topic comments.

While they often occur as pre- show or post-show events, Monkeyhouse’s SPORKS can happen at any point in the production of a work and they can happen anywhere. We have had them at people’s homes, in restaurants, etc. Sometimes just changing the venue so that everyone is sitting around a table can make the conversation more lively.

Obviously, there are many more ways to improve Q & As and I would love to hear about ideas that are working in other organizations. Liz Lerman’s Critical Response Process is a marvelous guide for people who are looking for more resources.

 

Are you an artist? Audience member?

Have you had a positive or negative talkback experience? Attended a Monkeyhouse SPORK?

None of the above?

Any and all thoughts are welcome below!

Karen Krolak is a free range collaborator and a curator of experiences based in Boston, MA. Since 2000, she has been the co-founder/Artistic Director of Monkeyhouse, an award winning non profit that connects communities with choreography. Her creative works involve some combination of  choreography, text, fiber arts, and storytelling and have been presented regularly throughout New England and in New York, San Francisco, Chicago, Philadelphia, Rome, and Winnipeg, Her favorite collaborators are Nicole Harris, Jason Ries, Kwaq7aj', Ralph Farris, Anne Howarth, and Barry Duncan and she is a huge fan of Luminarium. She earned her B.A. in Linguistics at Northwestern University and is currently pursuing an MFA in Interdisciplinary Arts at Sierra Nevada College. Much of her recent work has centered around the theme of finding physical poetry in imperfect bodies and around mourning as she grapples with the car accident that killed her mother, father, and brother. 

 

 

tags: dance, modern dance, boston, boston dance, talking about dance, thinking about dance, monkeyhouse, sporks, q&a, critical response, guest post, karen krolak, is it dance
categories: Topics for Discussion
Thursday 04.28.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

i hate performing/the quest for self exploration

For the last several years I’ve been quick to state that I hate performing, though I love dancing and moving. Growing up taking dance class after dance class I was always the blank-faced kid on stage, feeling openly resentful towards the artificiality of ‘pulling face’, but so eager to take on the physical challenge of dance. (Spoiler alert: I still feel that way - even as a choreographer that asks for facial involvement in some of my work - more power to those of you who enjoy that sort of thing.) In college I was really aware of my imperfect technique and lack of natural flexibility and a ‘dancer’s body’ and with the beginning stages of a hip injury that followed me through the past decade, my distaste for the ‘being on stage’ part of dance grew and grew and was easily justifiable in my own thoughts. Honestly there was nothing to miss by taking myself out of the performance equation; I’ve always wanted to create, never perform, and I find no greater personal satisfaction than in developing new work on a group of performers and watching it become their own physical and mental property - magic.

This year something happened.

A month ago I found myself in the midst of an hour-long solo performance, engrossed in what I was doing and truly enjoying it. Yes, it was a safe space and I was surrounded by peers. Yes, I had created the work from a completely genuine place with a collaborator I trusted. But… I [think I] was performing. And enjoying it.

I’m curious about everything - especially the inner workings of the brain - and have the tendency to crave the search for ‘why’, we can blame this on being the offspring of a therapist. Of course my brain jumped on the task of determining how and why this shift snuck up on me. I could track threads back to fall 2014, when I was participating in a choreographer’s residency at Green Street Studios (immediately after hip surgery) and had to share work that I was exploring with outside eyes. I remember being slightly terrified and equally thrilled when Karen Krolak and Lorraine Chapman pushed pushed pushed me one weekday morning just to be real, to be present, to deliver the movement I made as my own impulse dictated at the time. What felt right? Where did my body want to pause, and why ignore it? Karen, who I consider a great mentor, spent a few more mornings on the hunt for the identity of this phrase, continuing to (delightfully) challenge the process. Another evening Andy Taylor Blenis pushed me through that same phrase focusing on owning the physicality in the present. Real… present… These were things I totally stand behind as a human, and my conception of a performer based outside of one’s own true self started to melt. I’m not sure any of these wonderful women artists know what they jumpstarted, as they kindly shared their time, compassion and thoughts, or that it took me a full year and a half later to find the depth of my gratitude!

Another opportunity to be grateful for and the point of this entry... through the entire fall I was fortunate enough to work with a friend and fellow artist, Wolf Luman, and to sustain a deep dialogue through music and movement. He would communicate through brilliant sound that streamed into my ears, I would answer by following what my body needed to say in honest response. We never met in person, but kept a steady flow of tracks and filmed rehearsal sessions volleying back and forth. A few months later, Wolf had created an entire new album and without knowing it I created an hour of movement, obviously the fruit of both of which was a stand alone performance piece. And when you create such a beautiful performance piece, you have to perform it! And we did. And it felt incredible. And the audience was enraptured. There’s more to explore here about creating such a personal work through organic mediums (body and sound) with completely digital communication, but I’ll save it for another day.

I think the greatest takeaway is that a performance experience doesn’t necessitate ‘performing’ if you’re simply being authentic and present in live movement research. During each second of my hour long performance/sound exploration I was making choices - to move or not to move, if I decided to move what did my body need to do to fulfill my internal needs and the needs of the relationship between music and myself at that split second in time? What was I feeling at any given second and how could I merge that with what I wanted to say with my body? Yes, I recognized the fact that I was being watched and yes, those individuals viewing the performance shifted the goal ever so slightly just due to the fact that they were present in the space and all focusing their energy on the same subject (me!), but it was ok.

Looking ahead, where does this new found intrigue in exploring movement in front of others lead? Perhaps for me, a performance that is enjoyable and satisfying will always be improv so I can be absolutely authentic in any given split second of movement. In any case, I’m happy to have the beautiful ability to evolve, grow and see where the self exploration takes me.

Image from performance at Goddard College, Feb 1, 2016. - Photo Credit: Dan Goldman

Image from performance at Goddard College, Feb 1, 2016. - Photo Credit: Dan Goldman

tags: dance, collaboration, composition, performance, performing, presence, authentic, authentic movement, real, exploration
categories: Reflection & Exploration
Monday 03.07.16
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

rabbit hole cycles: new thoughts

It’s important to me that I continue to discover and clarify themes in this work. My current opinion of rabbit hole cycles is that it inspects a performer’s role in a new space and in changing environments, and the roles of the individuals in a group, in a quirky performative sense. The space(s)/worlds in the piece are far from real, and yet they are indicative of real life; a crowded street carnival or parade, the rehearsal space, a unpopulated outdoor space. The performers’ actions and impulses on stage are far from how people act in real life, and yet they’re representative of the human condition. The piece explores behavior in space, a closed experiment of sorts, while exploring artificiality in performance and day to day life. The dancers’ over the top faces and gestures are artificial moments usually confined to theatrical settings, but artificiality is similarly prevalent in the normal everyday life we experience. How often do respond “I’m ok” instead of speaking our minds when asked the question “how are you”?

More questions for the piece to explore: How do we act in a variety of new spaces, how do we act to each other, when do we perform, when are we the most artificial, how does being part of a group affect our actions, what happens when the dynamic of a group changes, is it possible to escape a cycle? References I’ve been exploring and utilizing throughout the process include the sound that I previously mentioned (Rabbit Rabbit’s Hush, Hush, Timber Timbre’s Run From Me), Dr. Seuss’ Star-bellied Sneetches, The Truman Show (yes, the 90s Jim Carrey movie), the work of M.C. Escher, Lewis Carroll and more.

tags: spektrel, dance, modern dance, dance theatre, rabbit hole cycles, theatre, luminarium, boston dance
categories: Work in Progress
Friday 10.16.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
 

Authenticity

As I write, reflect, watch and create my way through my graduate studies, I've discovered an increasing frequency of the word authentic popping up in my writing.

Why? Authenticity is the most important quality in my interaction with art, a constant goal for my own practice, and subsequently a lens through which I view performance.

Why this blog post? As I recently thought about a personal definition for the word, I realized that while I value it to the same high degree in both creation and performance, I define it differently for each of these situations. 

Yes, this is what life is like when your full-time job is pursuing an MFA.

Authenticity in Creation

To me, authentic in terms of the creative process means the artist is finding genuine ways to express what needs to be said in message, medium and means.

If you didn't catch on, this is an opinion piece. I don't intend any judgment against those who don't agree or work in this way, nor do I practice what I preach without fail every now and then. 

The message, what your art attempts to say, is something one cares about, believes in, stands behind; even the exploration of a sudden interest in a new idea can count. The passion and care for the message should carry through as you create, even if you get into a rut or fall in and out of love with any part of the piece itself. In theory (and I have a long career ahead to test this, let's check in a couple of decades down the road), the authenticity behind and commitment to the message could even be the jury for what stays and what goes. What truly fits what you're trying to say? Is there an actual need for the extraneous stuff besides not wanting to cut things time was spent on making? Perhaps you're making work about extraneous stuff; then, I suppose, it would stay. Bring on the high kicks and confetti.

When thinking about authenticity in terms of medium I don't mean one should fiercely commit to a sole genre, or the pursuit of showcasing stellar technique (to be honest I think sometimes technique gets in the way of expression, though it's a good thing to have in one's toolkit). What I believe is that the medium should be the best possible vehicle for the message. Even if it's five different genres delivered at once, or a painstakingly crafted classical ballet abandoned for throat singing, or simply standing in an empty space and reading a letter. 

I view means as the logistical process of making a piece, and it's easy to stay on track here; either make the piece with full effort, or don't. It's usually evident (as a viewer) when the maker stopped caring about their work, or perhaps ran out of time for a particular section or component. If you don't care to make something to the best of your current ability, why should someone care to watch it?

While my rambling thoughts could continue forever, it's this trifecta of message, medium and means, all carefully attended to, that makes an authentic piece. (Though I bet we can think of more important m-words if we try...)

Authentic Performance

In performance, I define authenticity as embodiment on both a mental and physical level. Authentic is the performer that finds the reason to be truly present onstage, the reasons for doing the action they've been given to do and finding a new and genuine interest in doing it multiple times. It's a serious skill; you know you're watching such a high caliber performer when you can't look away. I'm not entirely sure how this works outside of theatre, dance, or forms where the human body delivers the content directly. I would be curious to know how this exists for those that perform through an instrument. 

Authentic performance can be informal as well. I personally don't enjoy 'performing', but I do love to move. Lately when I'm improvising or moving without agenda, I try to match my mind to my body, following physiological impulses and making them into an internal dialogue, or my body to my mind, letting the thoughts that roll through my mind influence how my body corresponds. Very similar to authentic movement, but in my case the internal choreographer is sporadically distracted by aesthetic as I move.

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That's all I've got on authenticity, for now. It was important for me to personally define what it means for art to be authentic as I carry on looking for it in my own work and that of others, historic and contemporary. If you got through the entire thing, congrats! 

What is YOUR single most important quality in making, performing or viewing of art?

tags: dance, dance theatre, performance, modern dance, theory, choreography, composition, authentic, embodiment, authentic movement
categories: Topics for Discussion
Tuesday 09.22.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

A fugue for a fugue

As a classically-trained pianist (in a past life) I have an inherent love for the challenge that is a Bach fugue.  While difficult to play well I have always thought there was no comparison to the satisfaction of mastering Bach. There's a sort of pompous sassy joy to be found as your fingers romp over specific bits of rhythm, runs and jumps all over the keyboard.  I could always luxuriate in Mozart but Bach made me sit up straight and bounce around as I played - especially the Well Tempered Clavier preludes and fugues. 

That bit of nostalgic romanticism aside, a few months ago I had the urge to create a new trio based on the idea that 'getting there is half the battle', exploring lateness, procrastination, the inability to get things done and proceed through life triumphantly and efficiently. Funny and a bit depressing (maybe just maybe hitting close to attention-deficit-home), and entirely set to Bach. A movement of the piece would be based on life/unforeseen circumstances getting in the way, another would be a sort of real life-chutes-and-ladders where the dancers got in their own and each others' ways as they crossed the space, and the third would be a sort of examination of internal and external distraction and discontent.

(This is where the fugue comes in...)

Obviously the second movement of the piece had to be a fugue! Well Tempered Clavier's Fugue no.2 in C minor? Absolutely. Three dancers, three voices, a tone that varied from bubbly to stately, the first time in the piece they would actually interact with each other through movement... it made perfect sense. Then came the idea of setting a fugue to a fugue; not just creating movement that corresponded to the music as a whole, but breaking the music into its three voices, digging through each of the three parts to find the content and repeating motifs and phrases, and making a compositional structure that could snap into the form of the fugue. Sure, there would be importance placed on the movement corresponding with the initial musical statement, but all of the other content and musical phrases wouldn't be swept under the rug as they, too, carry the piece from point a to point b.

(For those of you playing at home that are entirely lost, learn about fugues here or through a quick video here.)

How?

How quickly became the challenge. My dancers are incredible and rhythmic and eager to learn and master, but as it turned out, no one else spent babyhood to age 18 training at the keyboard. Turns out the knowledge I took for granted wasn't entirely an easy concept to teach - especially as I felt out of practice myself.

 

We started by listening to the piece as a whole and watching this terrible-sounding visualization.

Next step: I whipped up some color-coordinated sheet music as something to use as a visual aide as we continued watching and listening, just to capture the sense of motion in each voice and perhaps timing. 

Above: Mardi-gras highlighted sheet music and a really chaotic chart! 

Below: a first stab at fugue form

I isolated similar phrases and motifs, breaking each voice into several parts (A through E, with some phrases played backwards/with other modifications). Each part got a set movement idea that I hoped would propel the action through space; for example A is the main theme and sends the dancer forwards, D (what starts at measure 9 in the lowest voice) runs down the keyboard dizzily, stopping here and there to regain power and focus. 

KHolman 2015 - Getting there is half the battle.

The last technique was plucking out the phrases on the baby grand in the studio as the dancers danced them individually. This was a sort of depressing reminder of how out of shape my fingers are, but helpful as a learning tool.

As each dancer learned her sequence of movement, how it correlated to the music, and how she might interact through the crossing phrase work with the other performers, I realized that my complicated scheme worked. I'm not a fastidious planner and when the movement lined up well from a structural perspective, as I had hoped it would, I was thrilled.  (Here I also almost made the mistake of trying to incorporate the concept of a fugue state, probably over complicating things - but think about the similarities of the two, it would be fun to play with... next time.) How others try to create a movement fugue, I'm not sure, but I'd very interested to find out. 

Onwards.

Our new challenge as a group is continuing to hear the line you are dancing to, as you dance to it. I get the sense that my dancers are quite comfortable with the main theme and the overall flow of the phrases, but listening to all three parts at once while performing just to one is difficult, especially to capture the Bach-isms, and tiny differences between repetitions of ideas. Making the listening/dancing experience even harder, is that melodically this piece is all over the keyboard - the soprano and alto voices cross a lot, it's really chaotic and tricky to keep them separate while listening to both. That being said, each of my wonderful dancers is working, making clearer musical connections with every run and starting to bring their own sense of individuality into the fugue. 

I'm SO pleased with how things are coming along and can't wait to see where we are at in October, once we have the two other accompanying movements finalized (think a giant elastic band, artistic musical chairs, lots of frustration and maybe a stage selfie or two) and put this entire piece on the stage. (Spektrel tickets here!)

I've asked the dynamite Merli V. Guerra, Amy Mastrangelo and Brittany Lombardi (aka the liberally aforementioned dancers) to send me their responses to this post and the process so you can hear their perspectives. Stay tuned! Also, if you've had interaction with a fugue in any genre I'd love to hear about your own triumphs, struggles and quandaries. 

tags: dance, modern dance, bach, music, process, fugue, spektrel, composition, challenge
categories: Work in Progress
Tuesday 09.08.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
Comments: 1
 

Is it Dance?

I think it's important to note that my lens is modern dance, sometimes shifting towards a postmodern preference (movement for movement's sake) and more frequently towards the dance theatre need for image-based expression. I am curious to see if this problem comes up in forms that focus on showcasing a technique. 

Everyone seems to know what dance 'is'. Any person walking down the street could offer a definition of dance and maybe even give an example of their best ballerina-esque pirouette, a loose interpretation of tap dancing, or (my least favorite, even as a sometimes-musical-theatre-choreographer) jazz hands. Merriam Webster is no help, suggesting that dance (noun) exists as "a series of movements that are done as music is playing; an act of dancing." The problem I'm considering this week, is when that need for definition gets in the way of actually watching dance. 

Just last year, a well-meaning reviewer came to a Luminarium show and puzzledly noted that while she enjoyed the performance, it seemed that the dancers barely scratched the surface of their technique in the material given. 

A few years prior I found myself sitting in a studio showing in Chelsea, after watching my Luminarium co-director and friend Merli Guerra show one of her dance films, a striking piece that integrated a live performer. An older man (who we seemed to hear from endlessly throughout the evening) was the first to shoot a hand in the air and to state, "I just don't think that's dance." There was a quiet smattering of opinion whispered through the crowd, and the discussion ended; shockingly no major objections from the NYC crowd.

Where are we going wrong in that audiences are needing to outwardly contest a work's genre, and in turn that classification/misclassification effects their consumption of the performance? I recently attended a showing's talkback where everyone was so eager to chime in (a good thing), but all shared the same anxious look in their eyes as they shared an interpretation of the work with its creator and asked if they were right (not a good thing). Why do some audiences truly need the affirmation that they 'got it'? What happens when there is nothing to get?

After some thought and reading many critical reception essays of some creative icons (Cunningham, Bausch, Cage, etc) I believe it's the inherent assumptions that allow anyone to define and recognize dance that trap us in rigid boundaries.  Preconceived notions of dance are frequently challenged in the modern dance setting, which can lead to an uncomfortable combination of frustration, confusion and maybe a little bit of fear in the average audience member.  Perhaps by seeking affirmation in a talkback a viewer is seeking to redeem themselves after a perceived dig to their intelligence (again, sometimes there is nothing to get), but wouldn't watching dance in this manner be exhausting - ala frantically searching for symbolism through the curriculum of a literature class, and missing the enjoyment of just reading the works?

What can we do to demystify modern dance and its sub-genres? How can we get audiences in our performances that are ready to openly receive what we have to share without clutching so tightly to what they consider as dance, and measuring the difference between the two? How do we provide a safe-feeling viewing experience that might house some unsettling content; to make everyone feel like they belong, if they are ready to receive, and that all experiences are valid? 

I've certainly been in an audience myself when there is a pre-show reminder that all experiences are 'correct' and important, there are no wrong answers, and at others where the creator provides an immense amount of program notes to (over?)-explain what viewers are about to see. Do we have other options, can we improve upon what we have?

While I certainly don't think the ultimate remedy to this problem is creating work with an audience's safe-zone as an absolute limit, I also don't mean to insinuate that the choreographer can do no wrong in fighting such an uphill battle.  In my opinion it's definitely the responsibility of the creator to make work that is as authentically embodied and thoughtfully crafted as can be - no shoddy workmanship - but that is another post for another day...

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tags: dance, modern dance, postmodern dance, dance theatre, audience, theory, reception, open-mindedness, affirmation, grad school
categories: Topics for Discussion
Tuesday 08.25.15
Posted by Kimberleigh Holman
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